Heels For Ankles

I'm run down like the walls holding me back
These cages or boxes
Can't hold back the inner child I see coming forth,
So with hand prints at your ankles,
Hold on to dear life,
Because the dead will keep tugging onto your heels

Crowd begging for more,
Little do they know -
The shows been long over
Mirrors keep us screaming
After all is spilled, we short circuit
Malfunctioning is our only commitment in a new type of reality

I'm run down like the white padding
These boxes cannot contain my voice,
As these shadowless walls won't be my last purgatory,
The cynical men in black dresses don't understand
How persistent the dead can be when trying to recapture the livings soul
You can call it what you want,
But the depths of these nightmares won't bring back sanity

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Like a fish out of water
You're watching me take my last breaths,
Cutting me off the trick that you played on me
Leading me on, only to discover you were my impending doom

So let me free; I'm in this world where I can barely breathe,
My veins are shrinking away
To be consumed,
My heart was all you wanted
So now you have it, eat it up carefully
It's been poisoned by all the fish in the sea

So you cast me out?
Did I feel as satisfied as I did in the water below you?

So what have I been robbed of?
As I barely had a thing before,
I knew it was you when I walked in without a door
And saw that everything I once loved was gone

Pulling the Trigger

Whatever happened to the lines we drew at the beginning of battle?
When the guns are pulled we turned our backs and keep on walking
So you say, I'd rather be scared than dead
Somebody save me now

For all the days spent
I was looking down the barrel of those guns
These words we say,
Forever shooting for dreams

Well keep singing your crazy love songs
In pacing you out
They call me a heavy dreamer but
My nightmares don't compare to reality

Whatever happened to sublimity?
The holsters keep holding the bullets in place
But my heart ain't racing
It's not holding any pace

Well if I keep the barrel pointing your way,
I'm sure I will figure out the problems someday
So pulling the trigger might be the scariest part
When my own death is on my own heart

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Moments before I left
And the days that followed,
I knew that if I looked into your eyes, you'd never see me again

So say what you want to say,
Lie to my face and make it seem like I can stay
But I know my demons are catching up now

So swallow your pride and allow all of the shame to swell up in your voice when you tell me that it is my time to walk away

The rain is pouring down on our backs
And behind us lies the past,
Remember me now you say,
As we forget who we are

We spend hours trying to walk in someone else's shoes but we forget where ours have been
And the soles have now eroded,
With the simplicity of broken tongues

There is no shame in spilling our guts tonight,
All it takes is one pointing finger down our throats and everything comes back up

I'd keep running to your doorsteps but you haven't convinced me that I am worth your time

The Trauma of Impact

While you call me, I'm over and out
The constant buzz continues,
And the lines blur -
While there is no sun to rise or fall,
My shot has been blanketed in text,
Scaling these impossible fences I have no clue
What I'm holding on to

In our town, superheroes are dawned of darkness
And their counterparts are so close I can hear them breathing

I need you to break my door down so these walls can feel paralyzed
And I will watch you count back to five every time,
With nothing to pull this rope awaits slowly
But I can't can't count on gravity as somehow it kept you away,

So holding your head was the only symptom of loneliness I'd never forget,
And if I jumped for what I believed in, I'd fall onto a complete strangers plane of glass
And they'd see me fall apart for the last time
So keep running away,
With my heart out
A bearing is all I need as my conscience slips my grasp

Recurring Currents

Through the lines,
I've been waiting
Just to see you now, but you keep dodging me
So I guess I will just go
But there's something I wanted you to know,

Oh I've been waiting, wading out here in the sea,
I was swimming now I'm drowning, but this is where I want to be

Through the lines,
I've been writing you,
Hoping you've grazed the world for me
Sitting at home with the door unlocked

Although this place is old, it's the new place I call home,
I was sleeping on park benches all alone

This is the life I live,
Sad as hell with the recurring currents dragging me back under the tide
Somedays death tastes so easy but I keep getting pushed into hope
But I know I'm only drowning myself deeper

If I keep waiting for you to call me now,
I know I'll never pick up where I left off

Through the lines,
The flames keep us waiting
But I'm burning at the thought
You could call it all a waste

Call Me

How's California?
Is it everything that it's made out to be?
Is it gorgeous?
Is it a place for a guy like me?

I want to go somewhere today,
To a place I've never been

How's California?
How much am I missing out on?
Are all my dreams wasting away?
Should I keep still today?

Everything I've been thinking,
Tells me I just need to go
Relax, relax,
There's no rushing to the golden state,

Everything I've already lost,
Won't ever be found
So we keep on looking
For new ways to find
These hidden things

Relapse, relapse,
I miss you
So how is California?
Is it really the place I need to be?
Because back here in Michigan,
I'm lost without your beaches