Finally Found

If I've lost my touch with words,
These unique riddles then will hardly suffice,
If in the pretext I presume that you've counted the minutes away,
I relapse into this pile of drugs, to relieve myself from missing the young face I see once a week
You can hide but never run, so far away I've finally found someone who understands who I am, and who they are - the truth keeps marching on
The troops keep marching on,
And as painted silos keep us safe from vermin, we remain whole as we were
Can her laughs of excitement ever be mine in whole?
I've finally found myself lost for words to express how I want to just say, I love you.
I've finally found you, so far away, do you hear me when I pray?
I lose my footing, my sense of direction;
I lose my grip, my sense of place,
When I'm here awaiting your conscienceless body to awaken from a mist of worlds that play with knives to whittle away the remains of a soul that never ceded time;
This delirium never knows how to express the convey of ships my mind sets out to see; somewhere at sea, and I'm jogging my memory for days I'll never see; those past mine, in the Artic, it's twelve past nine;
Just a minute ago I needed someone to see; I needed you to save me
I've finally found you, now I just need to have her around me more to make myself fulfilled,
Lost?
You've lost, at last, the last list of lies to recall.