Semi-Constructed Demolition

Good for you is the words you
Can't undo,
Birds in flocks we all dive together

You wanted to be the one to say
"I wrecked your home"
But you walked into shambles,
A vague reflection of the walls I built for my own sake

Mud, blood and money whole countless hours we put into taking you down

We sent out our senses to see how wishing would never fix the broken.
Falling asleep under the roof we lost
Blown away by the wind
The tapping could not trip us

Birds in flocks two times wiser
None the wiser, we flew into water
Stirringly,
We sat a-stirred
We slept in open water

If its time to go,
I'll stick around and help you get going
There's a million things about me to know
You say it's time for us to go

They will find us buried under our graces,
Looking lost, finding familiar faces
We flew in the sky tonight
We flew until our tongues were tied

The Leading Role

Sarah used to dream of portraying somebody else,
Now she's dreaming to be on a bed of nails,

Forced perspective of a blind man, a world of lights that never stop for a moment,

A world of blank walls, blanketed in pictures of your yesterday
The man you once loved is now the man you wish you wouldn't have

Heavy handed verbiage across your chest,
Thinking thoughts changed everything

Lynn wanted nothing but to have nothing,
And now she has everything she ever wanted,
Except for a soul continuously haunted

Brought in for the picture show,
Picturesque in a brilliant world designed to never let go

Maybe now it can go on

Somewhere at Sail (2012)

In a town full of doves,
Celebrated no weddings with no love
Around every corner another broken man,
A broken clan,
The teeth of knives was our familiar enemy

She said don't wait,
don't wait,
There's plenty of fish and you're bait
They'll keep thinking you're great but you're not real
You were never real,
A fake to be a meal

So come along,
All hands on deck,
We're all a wreck,
A nervous soul in need of check
Stay different and crazy
Our memories will remain hazy,
We will stay hazy

They clean the corpse of the clouds bearing,
Dead men and women cannot help staring,
Feeling like this life is not daring,
Hop in the rain,
Get on the train
Memories will only bring us pain

I'm somewhere at sail,
And you'd never fail
To be my reminder of who I
Wonder I will be someday,
Don't leave - just stay we will work this out
We will work this out
Don't stay to pout,
I need the woman inside you,
To find way to find you,
Because the both of me need the both of you too

The Promissory Note of First Class

I miss you much and I hope you know I want you here to call my own,

Oh so call it living, 

But last I checked your arms were thrown around my neck,

And we were dancing,

In a candlelit room and the music was melodic,

Romantic

Something that I've long lost,

My darling how I need you here,

Why am I wasting away; every day,

Send me your way in a brown box and you can find me at your doorsteps,

I don't care if its raining,

Or early; or if you're not even home,

So long as I see you,

And you see me,

So long as I continue to carry through,

The motions, we made hidden by candles, our feet hardly touching ground, and with the music, romance was our only sound, and I can hear you singing already,

I can hear you already,

As you pass me by,

As you've passed me by

Coming Together, Falling Apart

It took seventeen years for my dreams to fade away,
While blank walls, blanketed in hollow frames of fire,
I tic at the wink of an eye, blurry from the beer she poured

Keep these miracles; pray
For our fathers well, we tossed away our rights to break the surface
Under the red blankets of blood we keep well behind these walls,
We've blank slates of comatose hours away at the blades, and every miracle we prayed would last

So help me God the ground beneath this stone is getting softer and my view is getting smaller,
And in the small scheme of everything
I still only just got here,
Full of kerosene
Blocked off with fear

Skipper or Deckmate

Spin spiral,
Oh darling here we come
Floor first face,
Losing lost first place,
Sight no mission missiles missing
Target but so far away,
A missile so far gone, it's gone astray
And the crowd applauded with sirens of wails, and still we hit sea no see with torn down sails
While we watched men sink in laud, we traced with grafter,
Building up from a baseless sea farm,
We were only chasing wales,
As the journey mans journey ventured too far,
Into our waters the blades of vile and sea lorn could not face the lines anymore,
We faced the hostile with bricks worth boulders,
And placed the weight of the world on our shoulders,
Freckling skin and weathering bones left us imp and useless

Hold No/Wait (Weight) - Invisible Crawspaces and the Overheard Chaos

Where are you tonight; asks the rocking chair?
I await you, in your timeless days.
What colors we saw when we were blinded, and vague shadows we've seen since,

Where have you been:
Asked the handle on the door?
As I've been here waiting your 'turn

The sky has been blackened five times in-between our darkest days

Where have you been;
As I wanted to tell you our wait was up, our time was starting;
relapsing;
restarting...
lapsing

Where have I been;
Asked the man in the door frame?
As backwards as we noted our questions,
We quipped silently that we were never meant to be understood,
Just meant to never stand.

Pray for Yourself When the Clock Keeps Ticking

It's late and I'm early for a dose of your love,
So pray me back to sleep, oh God
How close to glory have I been brought?
I ask you to bring me to the life I need,
Anxiously I withhold saying three simple words, but it's only eight letters.

Tell me no,
As the beautiful sun you portray light,
The moon always turns its back away,
I never thought two thousand miles would become so far away,

I pray God,
Don't let me die tonight from the broken
Swear to me tomorrow will be better

The Circus Life

Note the way looker before you leave one last time,
Is the fan spinning,
Or is the ground collapsing under your feet?
What happened to our paradise?
What happened to this place we called home?
Are we empty bottles,
Crushed under the pressure of barreling circles?
In this stampede, the circus tent ruffles for the jubilation of the crowd as they see me running away
So leave me with rope and I can tie you a sinister knot, so bound by words your feet leave the surface but your heart just stays,
Where were we going when the sun rose last night?
How did the moon stop shining when the stars were still looking for place?
But it's the circus life the hopeless say they aspire for

Beautifully Decided

Oh how you pull it off,
Eyes wide closed,
You wake for me and as I sleep I find a burrow of all the things I couldn't find a home for

All I can think about is how
somehow you pull me closer every single time;
with a hug and a smile I fall into my dreams where you started me off.

It was our romantic tryst
Where I found within,
The rose pedals and long gone candles,

The night was never over

Somewhere between the blades of grass and
Lossless moments of sleep,
I burden myself with the knowledge
That you are the birds in the tree Looking down on me, singing away with your lullabies

But I am the fish in the sea, the water of the pond,
It's of your eyes I've gazed so fond
Farewell old friend,
I swear one day I'll just tell you

I'm in love

Sitting on an anchor,
My eyes on the trees,
Shore's so far away,
I can hardly hear you breathe

But if you keep kissing,
Like the sun to the sky,
Someday later
It's just a matter of time

So fall to the ground,
Red leafs making way
To crushing beneath,
Well that's how I found myself

So deeply embedded in you
Like the gun with the glue,
Just a trigger away,
And we will never fall apart

Apophenia

Try to always keep them guessing,
Leave them like glue,
After you've waited,
You can see straight through,

I guess it's a simple matter of relying on the way you've crossed me,
Hunger and greed have sinned from your perception of my future

I live in no boxes, but I put everything I had in hopes you will move me to stay,
Had the sun not let me down
I would've known best, but I'm better than that

They keep me singing in the shower,
My high blood pressure can't linger any longer,
For I don't have the power

You're the wind at my back,
I'm just a drop of rain
Falling face first and splitting at the moment I finally hit the ground

I'm a magicians last trick,
so tell me how does it feel to not exist?
I bet it feels wonderful with the
Barrel of a loaded gun against your chest, and nobody there to hold it up.

Lost

Glued open eyes, with blacked out torches
Falling to the ground,
The lake awaited our tendency to not comprehend when to stop

We kept spinning, like a spider feeding it's last meal,
Still can't find our way to the top

I'm no mountain, I'm just an anthill, constructed by hard work,
Keep your guesses coming
Even if we are falling apart,
I'll be happier now than I would've been before

Continuing to consume this courage,
Nobody there to hear me say I love you,
Keep building these walls like a drone,
Soon I will find my way back home

Swim in the consumption of fear,
Pages don't stop turning
Even if you're lost, the end will catch up with you as the book closes

Heels For Ankles

I'm run down like the walls holding me back
These cages or boxes
Can't hold back the inner child I see coming forth,
So with hand prints at your ankles,
Hold on to dear life,
Because the dead will keep tugging onto your heels

Crowd begging for more,
Little do they know -
The shows been long over
Mirrors keep us screaming
After all is spilled, we short circuit
Malfunctioning is our only commitment in a new type of reality

I'm run down like the white padding
These boxes cannot contain my voice,
As these shadowless walls won't be my last purgatory,
The cynical men in black dresses don't understand
How persistent the dead can be when trying to recapture the livings soul
You can call it what you want,
But the depths of these nightmares won't bring back sanity

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Like a fish out of water
You're watching me take my last breaths,
Cutting me off the trick that you played on me
Leading me on, only to discover you were my impending doom

So let me free; I'm in this world where I can barely breathe,
My veins are shrinking away
To be consumed,
My heart was all you wanted
So now you have it, eat it up carefully
It's been poisoned by all the fish in the sea

So you cast me out?
Did I feel as satisfied as I did in the water below you?

So what have I been robbed of?
As I barely had a thing before,
I knew it was you when I walked in without a door
And saw that everything I once loved was gone

Pulling the Trigger

Whatever happened to the lines we drew at the beginning of battle?
When the guns are pulled we turned our backs and keep on walking
So you say, I'd rather be scared than dead
Somebody save me now

For all the days spent
I was looking down the barrel of those guns
These words we say,
Forever shooting for dreams

Well keep singing your crazy love songs
In pacing you out
They call me a heavy dreamer but
My nightmares don't compare to reality

Whatever happened to sublimity?
The holsters keep holding the bullets in place
But my heart ain't racing
It's not holding any pace

Well if I keep the barrel pointing your way,
I'm sure I will figure out the problems someday
So pulling the trigger might be the scariest part
When my own death is on my own heart

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Moments before I left
And the days that followed,
I knew that if I looked into your eyes, you'd never see me again

So say what you want to say,
Lie to my face and make it seem like I can stay
But I know my demons are catching up now

So swallow your pride and allow all of the shame to swell up in your voice when you tell me that it is my time to walk away

The rain is pouring down on our backs
And behind us lies the past,
Remember me now you say,
As we forget who we are

We spend hours trying to walk in someone else's shoes but we forget where ours have been
And the soles have now eroded,
With the simplicity of broken tongues

There is no shame in spilling our guts tonight,
All it takes is one pointing finger down our throats and everything comes back up

I'd keep running to your doorsteps but you haven't convinced me that I am worth your time

The Trauma of Impact

While you call me, I'm over and out
The constant buzz continues,
And the lines blur -
While there is no sun to rise or fall,
My shot has been blanketed in text,
Scaling these impossible fences I have no clue
What I'm holding on to

In our town, superheroes are dawned of darkness
And their counterparts are so close I can hear them breathing

I need you to break my door down so these walls can feel paralyzed
And I will watch you count back to five every time,
With nothing to pull this rope awaits slowly
But I can't can't count on gravity as somehow it kept you away,

So holding your head was the only symptom of loneliness I'd never forget,
And if I jumped for what I believed in, I'd fall onto a complete strangers plane of glass
And they'd see me fall apart for the last time
So keep running away,
With my heart out
A bearing is all I need as my conscience slips my grasp

Recurring Currents

Through the lines,
I've been waiting
Just to see you now, but you keep dodging me
So I guess I will just go
But there's something I wanted you to know,

Oh I've been waiting, wading out here in the sea,
I was swimming now I'm drowning, but this is where I want to be

Through the lines,
I've been writing you,
Hoping you've grazed the world for me
Sitting at home with the door unlocked

Although this place is old, it's the new place I call home,
I was sleeping on park benches all alone

This is the life I live,
Sad as hell with the recurring currents dragging me back under the tide
Somedays death tastes so easy but I keep getting pushed into hope
But I know I'm only drowning myself deeper

If I keep waiting for you to call me now,
I know I'll never pick up where I left off

Through the lines,
The flames keep us waiting
But I'm burning at the thought
You could call it all a waste

Call Me

How's California?
Is it everything that it's made out to be?
Is it gorgeous?
Is it a place for a guy like me?

I want to go somewhere today,
To a place I've never been

How's California?
How much am I missing out on?
Are all my dreams wasting away?
Should I keep still today?

Everything I've been thinking,
Tells me I just need to go
Relax, relax,
There's no rushing to the golden state,

Everything I've already lost,
Won't ever be found
So we keep on looking
For new ways to find
These hidden things

Relapse, relapse,
I miss you
So how is California?
Is it really the place I need to be?
Because back here in Michigan,
I'm lost without your beaches

The Cartoon Robbery of Teal Walls

It was the wind behind my back
The words that it screamed
And the questions that left my lips
That left my heart reamed

How does it feel, shouting against the sky?
Defining loss as the way to get ahead in life and be so far behind

There's nothing here anymore

So we kept running through the places we used to hide, asking people to show their pride
Our hotel rooms contain things worse than bed bugs
(scarier than rotting flesh)

One day we shall see what the world brings those of who wait, while those blowing us kisses keep us away

With the wind in my face, I've been screaming for nobody to hear me
It proves to me that no one has ever cared enough for the things I used to say

Bitter sweet lines about beating hearts and shallow graves,
Menacing corruptions making us fake

Nowhere in the world can I see myself wishing I was but the places I used to hide all them years ago,
As dryers were the white walls I felt the most content being myself slammed up against

These battered questions left me looking for answers I'm afraid of
And yet once again the world stopped me from spinning out of control

Homecoming Events: Dissapearance

You're an enigma, a shadow, a fractured person with no latitude
You sectioned yourself in two pieces, neither one could ever be loved
you leave so much to be desired,
Your cold shoulders won't ever keep me off, they won't ever keep us away

But you say there is nothing left, you have no way to keep on living but you keep mourning your own nonexistance,

So keep burying your hatchet five feet under ground, give yourself enough hope to try to get out but you know the only place to go now is down

The world around you was waiting for you to climb mountains and build houses, but you let it all go and thought it would all build itself,

Without the character to carry on you just lay there and hope tonight goes your way, but your soul is an empty box with broken bones

Golden Guild

Pushing down on pottery,
Kettles singing marching whistles;
Spider broaches fast moving,
Fast approaches;

Your red hair was fake but the green behind the ink was reminiscent of the summer you sewed me together;

Now I lay here with my son, and tell him stories of all the women who will never be his mother -

It's bedtime somewhere in Palesburg,
Where the children hide under staircases and don't believe in a man named God;

As she walked by me, she swore she had no intentions of putting her clothes back on,
And that if I was dying tonight that I wasn't going to be doing it alone

And we walked together; a wall of dying men, telling our sons we can't ever be their fathers,
For we are soulless beings and the vultures they have for mothers will replace them with nicotine and kerosene kisses,

Somewhere in an unfamiliar place called Palesburg,
Bags of gold allured our love ones away

Save the Sky

So this is the beginning of what seems like such a beautiful end
When the world keeps spinning,
We will lay in bed and play pretend,
This is our house, this is our world!
So listen to me while I tell you story of how fast everything changed,
Everything changed;
Did you happen to notice, the man with the motif that exclaimed rest in peace?
So let's keep this up, our one common ceiling is falling and with no remorse our feet will take their course
Make what you will our love will stay only as strong as your heartbeats.
Watch me demise
I'll die right before your eyes

I Know You

Will you wait for me?
Will you stay for me?
Can you breathe for me?
What if I start to forget myself?
What will I know?

You've came into my life,
I swear it was in time
Right when I thought, it was way too late
To ever fall in love, to ever fall in love again
I'd rather die than be without you
I cannot be left alive without you

I know you are the one,
that God sent you to me
You are my everything,
You are the air I breathe
So hear me when I say
Never leave

The oxygen hits my bloodstream
I know you can feel me breathing you in
I know you can feel everything I'm thinking
I'd rather die than see you in pain,
But I'd stay alive just to heal you
I know you might be thinking that I'm naive,
But this is the truth, I need you to believe
I'll never sleep again, I'll never sleep again, I'll never sleep again
If all of your patchwork, comes undone

12.12.12 Murder On San Dixie South: Part Two

You could hear me wherever you go,
But now I remember that you swore you'd never leave,
I'm beyond those days and I accept it,
Now my future has light and shadow,
Corners and creases,
We stare though the telescope -
Sing our hearts out through the telephone
Just to know in this galaxy, we are alone
Come back to Texas, the center of the south, as well as you'd get acquainted,
To be satisfied but your pain always stops you

Has it really been this long since I had this much time on my own?
Now plans are here on the worlds backbone
And you'd never know
We still sneak out of theaters and break into cop cars,
With the hopes of hearing you out,
Of reach and time,
On San Dixie South
We just died together.

Homecoming Events: Segmentation

You should have seen her when I opened my eyes
Face first on the floor looking for daddy and nothing more,
So I lifted her up and held her while I realized I had the world in her hands
Oh how I realized I had the world in my arms

So here we sit in boxes with closed eyes and dead hearts
The skylines won't be the same again as we approach Godspeed from all of those above and below
How do we heal in the futures sake when presently the past is too late?

Our face masks can't hide us from becoming a sensible mourner,
So bring all confusion in line to the alters house,
And alter everything we've known -

Our graffiti has no mark anymore as the fresh paint has been layered against our vision
Oh how frequently we feel cheated

The Hopeless

Comprehension,
Despair is the quickest way to go;
Selfishly,
Drawing lines across our veins

In silver pen, we write farewell,
How well we thought we knew,
The hopeless,
Them without center

We are swollen; empty
When the void met the vice grips,
They were destined to sink ships

Selected into these services,
You called upon me;
I don't even know who you are

So tell me who you are -
Without using any words;
I have an idea from where I'm standing,
But how I long to feel your burn up close

And they called us sarcastic, needy and plain,
You to me only exist as a blain

You are one;
You are hopeless.

Love

Undeniable,
These senses sweep across me
My feet so far off the ground in floating into an abyss,
Where the ceiling is painted in water,
I can feel how warm you can be

Indescribable,
These words fall from my mouth as my eyes can hardly believe what they have become
From the days of pain,
Where every blessing was an extra gain,
There is no ceiling in sight

Understated,
You were never less than a thought away,
The city lights, the city nights
We hit the town with our feet scraping by,
And I feel these emotions writhing through me

Search the world for something true
Leave the planet for the things you can't believe,
Because of love,
I have to let everyone else in on our secrets

There is nothing quite as socratic as knowing this could've been a work in progress
And the writing on the walls say our faith won't wane on us

The Shadows of Years

Loving you is my favorite habit,
To your heart I am an addict.

Being near you brings me to life,
From where I was
The only thing I had left to lose
Until I met you

Everyone always thinks "I need to be remembered" but truth be told,
That thought process is way too old
The only thing that you try to do
Is become unforgettable,
And when you die your soul will hear words that are so regrettable.

I've been chasing the wind like a frisbee, my soul has been searching for a place to land
I can only pray I arrive safely in your hand

In between us used to be bed sheets,
But the world has evolved into separations of broken communities

The Darkest of Ages

Don't worry, I'm going nowhere
I said through the tunnels you'll see nothing and your lights are out,
But my hands they hold you so well beyond the sea,
My vision is blurry but still I see

It's love through the blood I spilt upon these open blades,
And in no remorse,
The sun doesn't see me anymore
The sickest of men and I'm falling apart,

Where we once danced
Our eyes so blinded last stole a glance
You are so dear darling,
Your departure abrupt and the rivers flooded the gates

So now I sit in the darkest of ages,
Relapsing as I call upon myself to stand up without a spine

The Lightest of Times

The stars never burned so brightly,
So they say it will be the end (of the world)
Well you can't consume me with your unusual fears,
I won't dread my time left if there is much to go;

Oh it's unusual to perceive the clocks as winding,
As the words are binding,
The words we say last won't be
(3,2,1)
There's no going to be "nothing left"
But if he descends then you know it was always him,
To whom we hymn;
I'm under the impression that this pressure won't get me under you
No one can get me over you;

But these stars never looked so right
I guess our time is now.

Make It Home

You just left
But it seems like its been so long,
So let me know when you get home this time,
And let me know you'll be alright
Because every time I see you break
I'm wondering will you make it home tonight,
Because every time I hear your voice,
I pray "this can't be the last time"
Because I'm in love,
I'm in love

You're not picking up,
But I keep calling,
My heart keeps breaking,
Because I know you're falling
You said,

Let me know when you get home,
Tonight,
And promise me you'll be alright,
Because if it's the last time I hear your voice,
I need you to know
I love you, I love you, I love...

I swear when I get home tonight
I'll fall to the ground and pray you're alright,
Because when I hear your voice I know
Everything is perfectly fine

Little Angels

With silver spoons,
I can get use to this feeling
I want to keep holding you
Because this is a feeling a never want to let go of

So how do we maintain our lungs functions
When we speed up our breathing, slow down our speaking
And refrain from thinking?

The whole world knows me better than they say they do,
With the sounds of wedding bells, I cannot hear you when you pull me down,
This will be the life of me

With silver spoons
We are born again

Three Little Words

Away from here,
These waters wash
Compel the tides,
Exhale the smoke
Those burning trees;
They needed me

I live exhausted
I die alive
I'm not scared

To be yours,
Holding your hand,
Three little words
Escape my lips
I'm not afraid
Need you know?
I love hearing
"I love you"

When Dying Leads Us To New Heights

avoid all interest,
a life void of any care, these people will die
we continue to see the scars they lay upon us
seven inch blades they will take our lives;

how much does it take for us to keep breathing, oh shallow breather?
what does it take of us to keep bleeding?
I can not become the blood of you without these counters
seven inch needles they will give our lives;

ambitions missing the point
hallow hearts, hollow heart,
oh how hollowing

avoid all intent,
a death void of any care, these people will live
we continue to see the scarves they lay upon us
seven inch holes left from our lives taken;

how much does it take for us to breathe again, oh hollow breather?
how much blood does it take for us to start seeing?
I need all of the blood in your counters to keep trying
seven inch hearts won't stop beating

painlessly you made your mark,
shallow heart, with the depths of an ocean
I will keep swimming with my back to the sky
I may reach the end of the world dead, but at least I can say I did try

Never Give Up

Father, I need you to see,
the weakest sides of me,
I need your light to help guide me through this fog,
as I am blinded by the darkness,
I need a way around

Due not to who I am, but who I am not,
these things are in danger by the disgrace we have mourned,

If You take me back to the place where I knew my life
would You allow me to see You once again?

Between them I lay and there You stand,
scrawling down words that I could never bear to hand,

Due to your weakness, the clock is running low,
with the children you gave us, the crops of their lives are others seeds to sew,
I couldn't be found lost in Your words,
I spent too much time trying to be lost in her worlds
and if You see me now,

I would never give up for anyone else's crown
I vow to never let this die,
as it eats away
my life is slipping to grey,

and I'm ever grateful for this life You gave

Send Me the Ocean

Why do you have to be from a land so distant?
Why can't you see me when I break down?
My hands wanted to stop working but you gave me reason,
A hope and a prayer to land on

So why is life a game to us who don't want to play it?
I fly by to see the sun one more time today, so give me the time and space,
Because living is hard when you fear your own face

I need you here now, because the things you say make me feel like this is so close to home
So send me the ocean,
It will be one less place for you to not be,

If we are on the same page,
I'd lay my head upon your chest
Knowing not how it played out
Being blind won't stop me from seeing you,
So I won't let two thousand miles stop me,

My dreams were vivid
You two belong together,
And I grant you the world to try to stop you
Because love doesn't stop when the world does

Send me the ocean,
So we can swim together and get lost in the vast
Take me into the open
So these sober tears can be my last

Legacy in Words

In the last words I say to you
You scream I do
Marry me and we can run away, from bullets and projectiles sent our way and we can fall in love and stay in love and nothing will ever stop us now,

So I guess I'm not enough like you some say,
And I'm holding out, biting my tongue, hoping for this to work one day

If you say so long,
I understand I did this wrong,
We fell in love,
And you can't stop the heart can't stop the heart because it only stops itself

You are the dream I saw last night
And when I woke on up, you were gone in a fright

This is the first time I say these words,
Marry me, I swim with you in the dying sea,
Because blindness was lost and now I know
It should be you and me.

Legacy in Touch

This poem is for those who still want to see me do this. I love you all.

You believe I can somehow keep doing this,
Strength through endurance,
Patience without lust

Falling so fast you twist me down so well
I'd behave but I can stay alive from this grave,
Can you see it was the world to her I gave?

Well the city you see so much of is the place I'd like to stay,
So let me be involved in your train wreck so love can kill me this time,
I will watch over you every day

So why can't I drive this car into the fires that burned you down?
I can't hear your voice now I'm growing deaf,
My ears are burning from your pained words,

Worlds keep clashing away
Just memories hold me like waves,
And I'm hoping you'll stay

Genesis 1:1

You've marked your crosses
And placed one upon my hand
Knowing you believe in Him too;
I'm falling a fool

Oh how I pray every time I close my eyes,
An seeing your name cross my face reminds me how you've brought me back to Grace,

These words mark the beginning of time;
You are my Genesis, bringing the universe to me and how kind of you to show me life,

When you shake there is nothing short of desire that crosses my mind,
Oh how deeply I long to keep you still,
Oh how deeply you've gotten into me, through my hands,
You're words are my nails and your beauty is my crown -

Have everything and tell her eternity remains

Under our years, every vow of love is...

Closure: Searching the Boardwalk

"Closure" poems are written for my friend Paige.

Relentless;

The first way I'd describe you (oh)
When I see you now,
I remember your late night words
I showed you my weakest side in my
Strongest of times
Hoping you'd call me back

Desperate;
But you can't spare me the bullshit,
You know I can see through your lies,
Like windowless eyes,
Super imposed pictures of us can't wait to hit the paper
As you'd rather us die then move on and live

Hopeless;
As you have yet to see,
Making someone the whole world empties yourself of true memories,
Oh how picture frames use to range these walls,
The glass shattered and we fell apart
And how holes paint fury we knew love at its hardest of times
And now my eyes dance ceilings, knowing we just need

Closure

Closure: Seeing Through Wooden Doors

"Closure" poems are written for my friend Paige.

I removed your name to forget your face,
With broken promises these hearts are hard to replace

You packed your bags and drove away
And I swore on my tears
After all those pained words
We swore off years;
Hearing you say your way out and how you couldn't be without me showed me I needed to be without you;

I sold my house because after all it was said and done,
You thought I was the only thing missing
Open through eyes showed me the light in the darkest days,
Knowing your fears kept me away from staying nearby,
I can't see you now,
The ghosts of my past with promises that won't last,
Hearing you out while I was deaf seemed to be unimportant to you;

I'll stay away,
You're my burden
I am just beginning to know
Who you really aren't

Closure: Coming Clean

"Closure" poems are written for my friend Paige.

In your city, these words are tasteless
A sample of what's yet to come
With a sense of who I am,
I won't ever feel this way again

And if you think I'm trying to take you down
Then your eyes are burning

Your back has been turned just long enough for me to really see who you are

But I don't care
All I have left to say is remember to forget me,
And forget every dream you'll ever have

This city is tasteless,
After you I leave my taste buds craving for something better
Now I'm coming clean,
Because seeing your name is not worth my time

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Someone call me out,
Tell me I'm not going to be a thing,
Show me the ceiling, and tell me I'm worthless.

Someone tell me I won't belong here,
Among the dead these seas wash away transformed love

Oh how far away is California?
Are the beaches really filled with arrogance?
Is the aroma in the air?
Oh, while worth you must,
A dime my love is lust

Shelter me now!
I don't belong here,
I can suit you if I can suit myself

Can you see the words as they escape my lips?
I'm lost in transmission, I'm changing in midst of transition,
How can I become alive?
I just want to be alive
I just want to be the words you say after you,
I love...

Wasted By the Blood

maybe if we can ever understand,
what truth in beauty really is.
the sun will rise once again

maybe if God holds us now we won't ever let go,
so call me out, in the shelter I hide
on the bottom of the sea,
I try to reside

but the air is so strong, that nothing gives me
the heart to belong, can't you see?

I died patiently with words waiting for you to paint,
the new empty and broken me.
nothing lives in this cascade, a part of who I was has now departed,
in love we say insane, this truth is only residual,

how do you convince someone who is already set on an answer to reconsider, without sounding rude?

to belong and keep up in this town
we bury our heads so far into the ground,
so we can feel alive again
to know we belong again

next to you, shotgun poses a threat
next to me, my heart falls from the sky in the manner of knowing
who I am,
and again begins the end, of another beautiful thing
wasted

As Long As You Know

How do you say the right thing,
When there is nothing right to say?

How do you live a life that is approaching its end?
What do you feel when you lose your friend?

There is nothing left to save us,
There is nothing left to save us,
There is nothing left to understand
As everything has been has been torn

The fish in this river keep getting taken away from the same lure,
A promise on the line with someone waiting to steal them

Love, some call it
But these words are science fiction

Did you ever love me?
Because gorgeous is the color in your eyes and tonight we set fire
We break down like decaying wood

We break tonight knowing the waters
In love we break to the end

Madness

These rivers that washed us away,
To where we float -
These city streets won't fail me now

Oh how glorious it is to feel insane!
To have spinning spiders at work in my brain!
To know to me alive is what you are,
Burning bright, my burning star

Is it normal enough to yell at the sky?
To ask a bodiless being "why?"

To never have a better word,
"Madness,"
She says
"you won't ever find me!"

To search through these papers
And only to find,
The things I take for granted are filing against me!
The world is spinning it's web around me
And the spiders are coming to get me

In a boxed off room I wear only one name tag

"Madness"

I Continue to Believe

With these wires I find myself
Falling down the horizon,
With bullets in shapes of daggers
These words were massacres

So how do I remain prevalent?
In a world built upon destruction,
The finest of a coiffeurs
Couldn't build upon my thoughts

When in Rome, I fall asleep in towers
There is nothing to lead me on

How do we relate?
In nothingness distance doesn't call me from below

I can't make out the difference between loving you
And tearing you apart
With a million miles apart you are at the edge of my galaxy,
And these ways can't keep falling down
Without wires,
We fall, we continue

These are the last words I could ever find at the back of my voice
To continue building up this personality

I'm in love with the idea of it

California Never Saw the Sunrise

If we walk through this city tonight,
what do we find?
Do we find the logic that other left behind,
or do we find each other?
Do we find out just who we are?

Right now, I have all of these questions inside,
and I've been searching for the answers
you don't exist in my world anymore,
as you've found a way to purge yourself out
and I can't believe how hard it is love, to stop love
especially when it's just gaining speed

I sit here behind these quiet office walls,
looking at pictures of yesterdays promises

is it worth it, to fall in love?
I've been sitting on dimes
hoping to find you were not the last of me
hoping to find you were not the death of me

If we walk through these city streets,
will we find ourselves in love?
Or will logic hold us back,
as falling in love has always been just too tricky
as falling in love with you would be just too easy

These sheltered walls have kept us apart
and although some might not know; I love you
I don't call because I don't bother ask;
why need I worry about you if you never had a history of getting hurt?

Your dad cried himself to sleep knowing he didn't do you right,
and the divorce that awaits, families are falling apart

Why do I bother fall in love with a stranger? You ask;
Not knowing someone allows me to know the best sides of who they are

Falling in love with you, oh is just so easy

The Hole in the Sky

Without knowing myself

I've tried to figure out how to become you

There is nothing in the world that

I could ever try to accomplish

I know nothing about the world,

I only know where we stand

So when you said you believed in God,

What was it that you meant?

Were you saying you believed that someone was watching over you?

Or just that the sky is too beautiful to have been left unmanaged?

Does it make sense, to fall in love with a stranger?

Or to fall out of love with your best friend?

If the sky closes up and swallows us whole,

Will we ever know how we really felt?

I can't believe that I've spent so much of my life,

Turning the pages away from you

I could never say

"Goodbye"

She Says the Most Beautiful Things

Clocks are all broken,
Because I don't have the time for you
I'm done with your games,
And I'm not mentioning names

You can't see the scars other have left
But I'm all new skin now
Residual things you take at the toll
As I pass you by, I know you are spiteful
So what makes circles and asks for nothing in exchange?
This city was burnt out of illusions

But you never cared
I stood in front of you with my bags and told you the door won't slam itself,
And you failed me
You failed us all

I lost all of my faith in you
Simply because you never had it in yourself

Lost (in These Dreams)

You light me up like matches,
And ask me to burn this place down to the ground
I'm solid with knowing that you've got me spent and spilled
I walk through these cities asking God why?
Knowing the pressures in your head are too much to keep you from bed.

When we feel like dying,
We lack the self esteem
To keep trying
And keeping our needles clean

You watched me build this house
Only to force me to watch you tear it down
With the words I try to say
You pull me to the ground

So when I sleep, I picture the world we once had,
Where nothing was nostalgic,
And everything was new,
So these are the last lines I'll ever say to you

I'm lost in these dreams,
Because I know that you are fake
But dreaming away a life that would be so much better,
Knowing everything I stand on,
Is more real than you

Find Me Again

Have you ever felt conflicted?
Like, you know the weight of the world is holding you down?

Like silver and blue turn into black and red?
Like everything you once lived for is now dead and gone?

I still feel that way.

We are blind, you see.
Dead animals floating over the sea,
You see?
We cannot live in such murky conditions

To know who we are is a joke shielded from laughter
To know who we aren't is our only gift we ever abandon

We search for God in our money,
We search for Jesus in funeral parlors,
We search for ourselves in drugs
But we never find anything

Moonshot, she says "today is the day I loved you"

I die every time,
With spent bullets and the courage the five bought me

Do you ever feel conflicted in heart?
Like you can't chose love over lust?
To know who yourself, someone else must

Breaks Like Ice (Cream)

You find me under the bridge tonight,
and I'm playing your favorite songs
you stop and say I'm pathetic for making you smile,
but you move on anyway

so you still say I can make these days last
but the last days we had are melted away with
bricks of time and sliding down your spoons

I can't make out with you anymore?
what if I could have made out with you again?
maybe our mouths would be more attracted to finding the words to say
when we had to say goodbye

well I guess I'm just a one hit wonder
(and afterwards I fall apart)
because distance is everything between us
(not like back when it was just a matter of inches)

our body heat
took over your bed sheet
and we rolled there on the ground thinking about how things went so well

but we sat there singing
"Goodbye, I won't ever see you again"
I loved you then, but now you can only be my friend

as I watch him take my shift
protecting you from the thieves that once stole me
and I'm melting away over here
you can't find it inside
to open your eyes,
even though you know

when it's him it's still always me

Pirate Under The Sun

it's getting hot
oh so fucking hot
with these waves throwing me around this ship

these birds keep shitting on me,
nothing left but these cannons to roll down to starboard

you are subliminal with thinking I could see you clearly
saying things like "we are coming to you"

we keep raising our sails higher than the masts
we keep playing the game of survivor,
thinking that we have much left to toil with,

these swords never killed
these words never killed

the blood keeps running off my hands,
and the gloves are off.

you were a whore worth killing
you weren't shit but a pile

so can you understand what I saw when I told you so?
he's only there to watch you go

he won't care,
he won't love,
he won't care,

all he's good for is the easy kill

oh it's getting so fucking hot,
he's your man, but I think you forgot

Bury Your Burdens

We came around here with intense conversations
of what love really is, and what it really is to love

Well he's going around the world with a bed behind his back

Do you really think I could ever conquer my own land?
That I could take back what once was mine?

Raw emotions beating by the snare drum,
and my hands onto you they grasp,
as knowing I've been gone makes my heart collapse;

You say "bury your burdens, and it will be all you ever will"
to become fearless, you must fear this, and know with
every "once upon a time" abruptly it ends without conclusion
"And know with every ounce of blood I'd give to you is too kind for someone
with your pedigree"

So slow
So I tow
Behind me lays a trick waiting for exposure

A mark upon my ribs He gave me,  my mark upon yours he gave you

And while you remain silent, of couse
You always knew your time would come

And it's up, and you are under him

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Not enough time,
Too much to say, I needed you to stand still
Everyone is trying to change everything about me,

She says don't go there, it won't be where you need to be
She forgets its next to her where I should;

They say don't fall for a girl and just focus on yourself;
I've spent the past six months doing that, what are you trying to say?

I feel like everyone's rag doll, thrown around and abandoned

She has every right to worry, because come an hour, I won't be breathing,
See come an hour, I won't want you to see

These strange feelings inside make me wish I understood how easy it is to live for others.

She had me inked in her ribs so I could never stop feeling her heart beat,
She's covered me up in layers and asked everyone to pretend I never mattered

I can't become a self dependent man because everyone has their voices eroding my confidence

Can this game be continued under someone else's watch? I don't think you are calling the shots as they are

But I'm done
I'm done with everything that seems to fall apart
You can control your vision if you keep your eyes closed
But you will never see the world as it truly is