Episcopal Corrected

Think back to the days we had,
Tell me if I could've changed our path;
What was it I did to feel that this was the road less traveled?

I don't want you to be the one that I miss,
I don't want you to be the one who got away,

Find your way to me, in the darkest nights and the brightest days

Screaming

You came to me in photographs and silhouettes,
Memories that were never mine,
A true love in a false time
Screaming
"I'm not ready for this pain, why must we go this way?"
Forgive the sunsets that you were never quite ready to see,
And love just wasn't ready for me;

As the glue dried I started slipping back to my ceramic base,
A petrified look on a ceramic face,
And cold blue eyes saw a man simply fall apart,

Just like the million pieces you found me in,
This tragedy continued to play out;

As the paint dried you could see just how bad the pigment was taking skin, blood levels low and love levels getting thin

My silver spoon was always the one I never used to eat with,
I can't stand to eat with my mouth that close to a dagger,

Nothing left but the part where you leave,
I'll keep sipping my Jack
The man you'll never know;
Covered by surfaces march-men;
You put me in a war against myself versus brick walls and basketballs,
Leave it to the court to determine where I end up,

Stroke every line you write about being broken hearted

Strike me as broken hearted

Stalkers

Follow me to the back end of the places nobody ever knew of,
Help yourself to my footsteps and shadows,
As time goes by, it's commonly unsaid
Forever is longer than long enough,
And if you continue to follow me,
You'll find I commonly end up nowhere and at dead end streets,
Tonight the lights will give me my heat,
Or else I'll be the coldest person you'll ever meet
So forget the reasons you followed me through the darkness,
Remember the reasons you left
Remember the treasons you sent
Remember the stalkers and the men who loved you;
The people who never stopped wanting to know what it's like to be you

I guess I sort-of just figured you were being reasonable for letting me go my own way,
Stalkers until the end, following the footsteps of the shadows
These exact ones won't ever be back
But if its broken then we are perfect,
Perfectly broken lights and backs from street fights,
Never surrendering, vacated from the moments we will never forget,
Will you continue to follow me?

So many mixed signals and the towers are collapsing, regarding every word I've ever said,
I'm better off dead

When we watch them run for the fence,
Our guns start searching for the place in the back of their mind
That they hope we won't ever find,

The jury is still out and the sentence is already complete,
An empty you, and an empty me
Is more than enough to make us both complete

Verbiage: Running Away

These weeks are running me down
Motionless words,
Sleeping in the back of my car
And I can't be overheard

All alone, feeling lost at home
I've spent all day waiting for you
And I can't believe I've been so empty

I've lived my life in waves between seas,
These emotions are running and escaping me
Like tripping on vines,
Through the grape and red wines,
Can't wait to see the red lines

These eyes work like thunder,
And the lightning is striking us where we stand,
Hiding in places we don't understand

I love you,
Come be next to me,
I choose to be the beach
And you can be the sea

The rivers hide between creeks and hills,
Oh how I realized how strong your words were when you weren't here

Integrities biggest strength grows when weak,
And rebounded us without places to seek,

I'm gone without motion
Sleeping in backseats
Back pressed against the door
Back to the pressing floor

So tell me you love me,
I'm between the waves,
I'll forget the reason you chose the beach
If you forget the reason I chose the sea

Semi-Constructed Demolition

Good for you is the words you
Can't undo,
Birds in flocks we all dive together

You wanted to be the one to say
"I wrecked your home"
But you walked into shambles,
A vague reflection of the walls I built for my own sake

Mud, blood and money whole countless hours we put into taking you down

We sent out our senses to see how wishing would never fix the broken.
Falling asleep under the roof we lost
Blown away by the wind
The tapping could not trip us

Birds in flocks two times wiser
None the wiser, we flew into water
Stirringly,
We sat a-stirred
We slept in open water

If its time to go,
I'll stick around and help you get going
There's a million things about me to know
You say it's time for us to go

They will find us buried under our graces,
Looking lost, finding familiar faces
We flew in the sky tonight
We flew until our tongues were tied

The Leading Role

Sarah used to dream of portraying somebody else,
Now she's dreaming to be on a bed of nails,

Forced perspective of a blind man, a world of lights that never stop for a moment,

A world of blank walls, blanketed in pictures of your yesterday
The man you once loved is now the man you wish you wouldn't have

Heavy handed verbiage across your chest,
Thinking thoughts changed everything

Lynn wanted nothing but to have nothing,
And now she has everything she ever wanted,
Except for a soul continuously haunted

Brought in for the picture show,
Picturesque in a brilliant world designed to never let go

Maybe now it can go on

Somewhere at Sail (2012)

In a town full of doves,
Celebrated no weddings with no love
Around every corner another broken man,
A broken clan,
The teeth of knives was our familiar enemy

She said don't wait,
don't wait,
There's plenty of fish and you're bait
They'll keep thinking you're great but you're not real
You were never real,
A fake to be a meal

So come along,
All hands on deck,
We're all a wreck,
A nervous soul in need of check
Stay different and crazy
Our memories will remain hazy,
We will stay hazy

They clean the corpse of the clouds bearing,
Dead men and women cannot help staring,
Feeling like this life is not daring,
Hop in the rain,
Get on the train
Memories will only bring us pain

I'm somewhere at sail,
And you'd never fail
To be my reminder of who I
Wonder I will be someday,
Don't leave - just stay we will work this out
We will work this out
Don't stay to pout,
I need the woman inside you,
To find way to find you,
Because the both of me need the both of you too

The Promissory Note of First Class

I miss you much and I hope you know I want you here to call my own,

Oh so call it living, 

But last I checked your arms were thrown around my neck,

And we were dancing,

In a candlelit room and the music was melodic,

Romantic

Something that I've long lost,

My darling how I need you here,

Why am I wasting away; every day,

Send me your way in a brown box and you can find me at your doorsteps,

I don't care if its raining,

Or early; or if you're not even home,

So long as I see you,

And you see me,

So long as I continue to carry through,

The motions, we made hidden by candles, our feet hardly touching ground, and with the music, romance was our only sound, and I can hear you singing already,

I can hear you already,

As you pass me by,

As you've passed me by

Coming Together, Falling Apart

It took seventeen years for my dreams to fade away,
While blank walls, blanketed in hollow frames of fire,
I tic at the wink of an eye, blurry from the beer she poured

Keep these miracles; pray
For our fathers well, we tossed away our rights to break the surface
Under the red blankets of blood we keep well behind these walls,
We've blank slates of comatose hours away at the blades, and every miracle we prayed would last

So help me God the ground beneath this stone is getting softer and my view is getting smaller,
And in the small scheme of everything
I still only just got here,
Full of kerosene
Blocked off with fear

Skipper or Deckmate

Spin spiral,
Oh darling here we come
Floor first face,
Losing lost first place,
Sight no mission missiles missing
Target but so far away,
A missile so far gone, it's gone astray
And the crowd applauded with sirens of wails, and still we hit sea no see with torn down sails
While we watched men sink in laud, we traced with grafter,
Building up from a baseless sea farm,
We were only chasing wales,
As the journey mans journey ventured too far,
Into our waters the blades of vile and sea lorn could not face the lines anymore,
We faced the hostile with bricks worth boulders,
And placed the weight of the world on our shoulders,
Freckling skin and weathering bones left us imp and useless

Hold No/Wait (Weight) - Invisible Crawspaces and the Overheard Chaos

Where are you tonight; asks the rocking chair?
I await you, in your timeless days.
What colors we saw when we were blinded, and vague shadows we've seen since,

Where have you been:
Asked the handle on the door?
As I've been here waiting your 'turn

The sky has been blackened five times in-between our darkest days

Where have you been;
As I wanted to tell you our wait was up, our time was starting;
relapsing;
restarting...
lapsing

Where have I been;
Asked the man in the door frame?
As backwards as we noted our questions,
We quipped silently that we were never meant to be understood,
Just meant to never stand.

Pray for Yourself When the Clock Keeps Ticking

It's late and I'm early for a dose of your love,
So pray me back to sleep, oh God
How close to glory have I been brought?
I ask you to bring me to the life I need,
Anxiously I withhold saying three simple words, but it's only eight letters.

Tell me no,
As the beautiful sun you portray light,
The moon always turns its back away,
I never thought two thousand miles would become so far away,

I pray God,
Don't let me die tonight from the broken
Swear to me tomorrow will be better

The Circus Life

Note the way looker before you leave one last time,
Is the fan spinning,
Or is the ground collapsing under your feet?
What happened to our paradise?
What happened to this place we called home?
Are we empty bottles,
Crushed under the pressure of barreling circles?
In this stampede, the circus tent ruffles for the jubilation of the crowd as they see me running away
So leave me with rope and I can tie you a sinister knot, so bound by words your feet leave the surface but your heart just stays,
Where were we going when the sun rose last night?
How did the moon stop shining when the stars were still looking for place?
But it's the circus life the hopeless say they aspire for

Beautifully Decided

Oh how you pull it off,
Eyes wide closed,
You wake for me and as I sleep I find a burrow of all the things I couldn't find a home for

All I can think about is how
somehow you pull me closer every single time;
with a hug and a smile I fall into my dreams where you started me off.

It was our romantic tryst
Where I found within,
The rose pedals and long gone candles,

The night was never over

Somewhere between the blades of grass and
Lossless moments of sleep,
I burden myself with the knowledge
That you are the birds in the tree Looking down on me, singing away with your lullabies

But I am the fish in the sea, the water of the pond,
It's of your eyes I've gazed so fond
Farewell old friend,
I swear one day I'll just tell you

I'm in love

Sitting on an anchor,
My eyes on the trees,
Shore's so far away,
I can hardly hear you breathe

But if you keep kissing,
Like the sun to the sky,
Someday later
It's just a matter of time

So fall to the ground,
Red leafs making way
To crushing beneath,
Well that's how I found myself

So deeply embedded in you
Like the gun with the glue,
Just a trigger away,
And we will never fall apart

Apophenia

Try to always keep them guessing,
Leave them like glue,
After you've waited,
You can see straight through,

I guess it's a simple matter of relying on the way you've crossed me,
Hunger and greed have sinned from your perception of my future

I live in no boxes, but I put everything I had in hopes you will move me to stay,
Had the sun not let me down
I would've known best, but I'm better than that

They keep me singing in the shower,
My high blood pressure can't linger any longer,
For I don't have the power

You're the wind at my back,
I'm just a drop of rain
Falling face first and splitting at the moment I finally hit the ground

I'm a magicians last trick,
so tell me how does it feel to not exist?
I bet it feels wonderful with the
Barrel of a loaded gun against your chest, and nobody there to hold it up.

Lost

Glued open eyes, with blacked out torches
Falling to the ground,
The lake awaited our tendency to not comprehend when to stop

We kept spinning, like a spider feeding it's last meal,
Still can't find our way to the top

I'm no mountain, I'm just an anthill, constructed by hard work,
Keep your guesses coming
Even if we are falling apart,
I'll be happier now than I would've been before

Continuing to consume this courage,
Nobody there to hear me say I love you,
Keep building these walls like a drone,
Soon I will find my way back home

Swim in the consumption of fear,
Pages don't stop turning
Even if you're lost, the end will catch up with you as the book closes

Heels For Ankles

I'm run down like the walls holding me back
These cages or boxes
Can't hold back the inner child I see coming forth,
So with hand prints at your ankles,
Hold on to dear life,
Because the dead will keep tugging onto your heels

Crowd begging for more,
Little do they know -
The shows been long over
Mirrors keep us screaming
After all is spilled, we short circuit
Malfunctioning is our only commitment in a new type of reality

I'm run down like the white padding
These boxes cannot contain my voice,
As these shadowless walls won't be my last purgatory,
The cynical men in black dresses don't understand
How persistent the dead can be when trying to recapture the livings soul
You can call it what you want,
But the depths of these nightmares won't bring back sanity

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Like a fish out of water
You're watching me take my last breaths,
Cutting me off the trick that you played on me
Leading me on, only to discover you were my impending doom

So let me free; I'm in this world where I can barely breathe,
My veins are shrinking away
To be consumed,
My heart was all you wanted
So now you have it, eat it up carefully
It's been poisoned by all the fish in the sea

So you cast me out?
Did I feel as satisfied as I did in the water below you?

So what have I been robbed of?
As I barely had a thing before,
I knew it was you when I walked in without a door
And saw that everything I once loved was gone

Pulling the Trigger

Whatever happened to the lines we drew at the beginning of battle?
When the guns are pulled we turned our backs and keep on walking
So you say, I'd rather be scared than dead
Somebody save me now

For all the days spent
I was looking down the barrel of those guns
These words we say,
Forever shooting for dreams

Well keep singing your crazy love songs
In pacing you out
They call me a heavy dreamer but
My nightmares don't compare to reality

Whatever happened to sublimity?
The holsters keep holding the bullets in place
But my heart ain't racing
It's not holding any pace

Well if I keep the barrel pointing your way,
I'm sure I will figure out the problems someday
So pulling the trigger might be the scariest part
When my own death is on my own heart

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Moments before I left
And the days that followed,
I knew that if I looked into your eyes, you'd never see me again

So say what you want to say,
Lie to my face and make it seem like I can stay
But I know my demons are catching up now

So swallow your pride and allow all of the shame to swell up in your voice when you tell me that it is my time to walk away

The rain is pouring down on our backs
And behind us lies the past,
Remember me now you say,
As we forget who we are

We spend hours trying to walk in someone else's shoes but we forget where ours have been
And the soles have now eroded,
With the simplicity of broken tongues

There is no shame in spilling our guts tonight,
All it takes is one pointing finger down our throats and everything comes back up

I'd keep running to your doorsteps but you haven't convinced me that I am worth your time