Coming Home Looking On Everywhere

back to bruised backs
paper novels harder to turn to dust than ash wood
folded delicacies into whipped desires, I can see it now
all that you hold turns to ice, stone, cold
you have the world in your hands, I am unsafe
at the drop of the dime you drop the ball and walk away
afraid and ashamed of your upbringing and how it just seemed to leave you there
in the middle of the grass is a single daisy, dying to prove the point we don't always live forever
if we can become legendary in any single way, lets hope it can be one of value
and now we are playing the game that the clock expects to win
I'm coming home looking on everywhere for what you left behind
the residuale loss of something one time substancial and nothing can spin faster than a marry
we ride fake ponies to experience the life
and as little as we are we have nothing to hold on to
if you shall ever wake up, I will be right next to you waiting, watching dreaming of you
my life has fired up in ways that had never been expected
but the things you least expect are the things you most appreciate
and though my eyes rie my mind, my heart connects to yours
and through every dream,
a silent movie has just one line
do not be a single one
she expects ice cream cones for lunch
she will expect handfulls of money to make her life easier than I ever had it
so it can only be the way that we figure out
in sleep we wait for the nightmare to come so we can remember how life can be in awkward situations

Seasons

if the air around us dictates everything,
check your thermostat
these words are stuck frozen, left alone
you are cold as fall
windy and yellow gold
I am cold and falling
if you can feel the same way as you did last week
you would feel like winter is trying to destroy us all
in places, we sit stuck frozen, left alone
if there is anything I've learned from the weatherman
is that the weathervane always points somewhere else
if you start to feel new again, like you can start over
lets start with a few seeds
in October we will harvest our dead leaves and carry them away in bags
and the next thing we know, we are getting places
it has been raining outside a lot this week
but the television screen said bright and sunny
just because you think you know what to expect,
you know when you are
the windmills are having a hard time making us stay alive
because the clouds have been stuck frozen, and with nothing to say
they broke my writers block, because I had some kind of day
and the seasons won't ever stay the same
but our words will stay stuck frozen
just like the weathervane

Praying for Chloe

defended by something in the air,
your surroundings have been raided
the sky isn't changing anytime soon
so I pray for your health, because I want to hold you
you'll be an angel when you get here
with all the need for attention
I pray you'll make it out fine
so just keep your eyes closed and dream up a place new
you'll see that dreams can come true when the time is right
my biggest dream came true when I met the world
I just never knew my eyes were closed

Carry Me (believeme)

tomorrow is a day yet to come without a promise
so have faith when I say
I am sick of taking today for advantage
you keep forgetting
who I was yesterday is just a shadow of who I will be next year
when life spins you webs,
keep on flying into them, because you can stick to something stronger

I keep wishing for you,
so believe me when I say you are coming to me through channels unseen

when things are different than planned,
throw away today, hold on to tomorrow

when I lose my footing,
will you carry me or will you throw me out the window?

believe me when I say,
this working title motion picture is in principle photography

the bigger picture is still out there somewhere,
under piles of your dreams and problems

you can condense me down to a single thread,
but you always will try to fill me up
my life has been spinning webs for centuries,
where will yours spin you?

Real

to ignite,
to hold for a short time
to lose everything
you are real
you are everything

to smother,
to never let go
to be timid on these feelings
I am here
I am somewhere I belong

you fade away
I can still see you
you ride behind me
I feel like you are showing me everything

to wrap up,
to walk out
to feel lost while staring at a map
without you, I don't exist
without you, I am not real

you are real my love
so keep holding on to me
even when I am out of sight

Carry Me (holdon)

out of reach
betrayed, diminished, distorted
only three words

it explains everything
crashing, falling, crushed
just hold on

tell your heart
hold on, now
just carry me

now we sit
separated, removed, static
in pieces waiting

even while weak
breathe, listen, see
while oceans sink

three words later
i love you
i am torn

nine times nine
hold on tight
this rides over

you hold on
gripping, releasing, requesting
oh young love

you walked out
goodbye, come back
i need you

Carry Me (nowforever)

pounding somehow
I just lost who I am

who was I back when the sun had rose?
where was I back when you came home?
sometimes I feel like you are all that is holding me
and then I remember, that you are

so here is to the days I forgot I made you feel alive
back when I made you laugh
I felt alive

when you hold me in place
I will ask you to carry me, carry me
now and forever
all I ever wanted was you

so now you want to exit the frame
holding on to everything that i love
and as the curtain falls
the act remains unleft

you are my supporting actor
the one who pulled me back
when any foolish mistake could have been made
you carried me
and said now and forever