Mostly, Dreams Don't Come True

In days, life changes faster than you can count
we pace the corridors, hoping for progress,
rushing the horses out of the gates, maybe they should not
forgive the trees for the sap that leaks out, after all, who can one be to control it?
the parasites are digging up all the dirty tricks in the evening news, and my story is left out
maybe for some, a true guess at what was said was, a shot in the dark, in the mid noon sun
after shorting a long whiles misguided walk, a one sided conversation is easier to find than a double eagle
most days end up the same, while one night sessions in a local bar with my head against a bottle is less recurring than most likely necessary, may I pray for a rain cloud in this overheated death ray of a day
I do not ever change fast enough for the machine, returns are finding their way back in line again the line a man sets out on a table,
in fear I walk through the flames that lick at my lungs, with soot and a feeling of fresh air, my dying test of madness asks me to make an ass of myself, so curiously, I remain hidden in a fortress made of hair dryers and false teeth, maybe for the fact that the one and only true thing is the missing heart, then we know retirement from a present day more human than one can believe profession has stranded me heartless and confessing my only true secret,
that my only daunting task now is to turn back all the clocks and remove the nails, to clean up the decisions I've made, and realize that dreams don't come true

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I am in a different state of mind than usual, and I hope this challenges what some people call and consider mind altering, because if it makes sense to many people, than I know many people are losing it.

When I Fell Asleep

all the time has passed that led us here
next to one other night after night
and nothing has made me this happy in my entire life
like a child on their first ride I started off scared, but now
I never want this to end

when I fell asleep you sat on my minds corner waiting for it to get off work
eventually; you left because I had to stay longer,
with as low my mind was blowing, my heart was casually a casualty
you are the sweetest thing I ever have had

the snow had fallen for me, as I had fallen for you
so hard I shattered when I came to earth and realized this could work
and just as quickly you made me melt
my heart in your hands; nowhere else could have been safer

when I fell asleep, I only saw you
like a pleasant ghost, you were everywhere
and I never felt more of a man
my life turned to gold

the flowers bloomed freshly
and in bundles you would get them, and as they glanced back
you knew it was love

in phrases you would try to tear it down to find an underlying cause
and you asked me one of your ever so famous questions
why me?

without hesitation all I had to say was
because when I woke up, you were my dream come true

Carry Me: Hold Me: Waiting

restless, today went according to no plan that I know
when the flames were ignited, my greatest fears were excited
and then you eventually had to leave
my restless mind couldn't stand knowing you were gone
fingers tapped, my tears kept falling
and as I waited for you to come home,
I decided to leave
with no clouds in the sky, it was raining today
and my legs were sore from keeping you from running away
I gave up hope that you were sick from being gone
maybe I'm wrong, but I hope you feel just fine
you are every lyric I have ever sung, you can still be mine
before I realized how much I love you,
I knew how much I hated myself
to be honest, you are the only smile I wear
so wait for me at the alter,
because you deserve to know that if I ever forget where you are
then I was too occupied trying to discover you all over again
just hold me, because I fall apart when you are gone
and what remains of me after nights like this is what you can craft
I will always know you
as the one who stole from me, the first thing you ever gave me
in a swift round with my chest on the ground I peered into your eyes
and saw the sunflower fields that kept all the evil away from me






-Jessica I love you with all my heart, and I never want to see you sad. You make me who I am.

Coming Home Looking On Everywhere

back to bruised backs
paper novels harder to turn to dust than ash wood
folded delicacies into whipped desires, I can see it now
all that you hold turns to ice, stone, cold
you have the world in your hands, I am unsafe
at the drop of the dime you drop the ball and walk away
afraid and ashamed of your upbringing and how it just seemed to leave you there
in the middle of the grass is a single daisy, dying to prove the point we don't always live forever
if we can become legendary in any single way, lets hope it can be one of value
and now we are playing the game that the clock expects to win
I'm coming home looking on everywhere for what you left behind
the residuale loss of something one time substancial and nothing can spin faster than a marry
we ride fake ponies to experience the life
and as little as we are we have nothing to hold on to
if you shall ever wake up, I will be right next to you waiting, watching dreaming of you
my life has fired up in ways that had never been expected
but the things you least expect are the things you most appreciate
and though my eyes rie my mind, my heart connects to yours
and through every dream,
a silent movie has just one line
do not be a single one
she expects ice cream cones for lunch
she will expect handfulls of money to make her life easier than I ever had it
so it can only be the way that we figure out
in sleep we wait for the nightmare to come so we can remember how life can be in awkward situations

Seasons

if the air around us dictates everything,
check your thermostat
these words are stuck frozen, left alone
you are cold as fall
windy and yellow gold
I am cold and falling
if you can feel the same way as you did last week
you would feel like winter is trying to destroy us all
in places, we sit stuck frozen, left alone
if there is anything I've learned from the weatherman
is that the weathervane always points somewhere else
if you start to feel new again, like you can start over
lets start with a few seeds
in October we will harvest our dead leaves and carry them away in bags
and the next thing we know, we are getting places
it has been raining outside a lot this week
but the television screen said bright and sunny
just because you think you know what to expect,
you know when you are
the windmills are having a hard time making us stay alive
because the clouds have been stuck frozen, and with nothing to say
they broke my writers block, because I had some kind of day
and the seasons won't ever stay the same
but our words will stay stuck frozen
just like the weathervane

Praying for Chloe

defended by something in the air,
your surroundings have been raided
the sky isn't changing anytime soon
so I pray for your health, because I want to hold you
you'll be an angel when you get here
with all the need for attention
I pray you'll make it out fine
so just keep your eyes closed and dream up a place new
you'll see that dreams can come true when the time is right
my biggest dream came true when I met the world
I just never knew my eyes were closed

Carry Me (believeme)

tomorrow is a day yet to come without a promise
so have faith when I say
I am sick of taking today for advantage
you keep forgetting
who I was yesterday is just a shadow of who I will be next year
when life spins you webs,
keep on flying into them, because you can stick to something stronger

I keep wishing for you,
so believe me when I say you are coming to me through channels unseen

when things are different than planned,
throw away today, hold on to tomorrow

when I lose my footing,
will you carry me or will you throw me out the window?

believe me when I say,
this working title motion picture is in principle photography

the bigger picture is still out there somewhere,
under piles of your dreams and problems

you can condense me down to a single thread,
but you always will try to fill me up
my life has been spinning webs for centuries,
where will yours spin you?