Beautifully Decided

Oh how you pull it off,
Eyes wide closed,
You wake for me and as I sleep I find a burrow of all the things I couldn't find a home for

All I can think about is how
somehow you pull me closer every single time;
with a hug and a smile I fall into my dreams where you started me off.

It was our romantic tryst
Where I found within,
The rose pedals and long gone candles,

The night was never over

Somewhere between the blades of grass and
Lossless moments of sleep,
I burden myself with the knowledge
That you are the birds in the tree Looking down on me, singing away with your lullabies

But I am the fish in the sea, the water of the pond,
It's of your eyes I've gazed so fond
Farewell old friend,
I swear one day I'll just tell you

I'm in love

Sitting on an anchor,
My eyes on the trees,
Shore's so far away,
I can hardly hear you breathe

But if you keep kissing,
Like the sun to the sky,
Someday later
It's just a matter of time

So fall to the ground,
Red leafs making way
To crushing beneath,
Well that's how I found myself

So deeply embedded in you
Like the gun with the glue,
Just a trigger away,
And we will never fall apart

Apophenia

Try to always keep them guessing,
Leave them like glue,
After you've waited,
You can see straight through,

I guess it's a simple matter of relying on the way you've crossed me,
Hunger and greed have sinned from your perception of my future

I live in no boxes, but I put everything I had in hopes you will move me to stay,
Had the sun not let me down
I would've known best, but I'm better than that

They keep me singing in the shower,
My high blood pressure can't linger any longer,
For I don't have the power

You're the wind at my back,
I'm just a drop of rain
Falling face first and splitting at the moment I finally hit the ground

I'm a magicians last trick,
so tell me how does it feel to not exist?
I bet it feels wonderful with the
Barrel of a loaded gun against your chest, and nobody there to hold it up.

Lost

Glued open eyes, with blacked out torches
Falling to the ground,
The lake awaited our tendency to not comprehend when to stop

We kept spinning, like a spider feeding it's last meal,
Still can't find our way to the top

I'm no mountain, I'm just an anthill, constructed by hard work,
Keep your guesses coming
Even if we are falling apart,
I'll be happier now than I would've been before

Continuing to consume this courage,
Nobody there to hear me say I love you,
Keep building these walls like a drone,
Soon I will find my way back home

Swim in the consumption of fear,
Pages don't stop turning
Even if you're lost, the end will catch up with you as the book closes

Heels For Ankles

I'm run down like the walls holding me back
These cages or boxes
Can't hold back the inner child I see coming forth,
So with hand prints at your ankles,
Hold on to dear life,
Because the dead will keep tugging onto your heels

Crowd begging for more,
Little do they know -
The shows been long over
Mirrors keep us screaming
After all is spilled, we short circuit
Malfunctioning is our only commitment in a new type of reality

I'm run down like the white padding
These boxes cannot contain my voice,
As these shadowless walls won't be my last purgatory,
The cynical men in black dresses don't understand
How persistent the dead can be when trying to recapture the livings soul
You can call it what you want,
But the depths of these nightmares won't bring back sanity

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Like a fish out of water
You're watching me take my last breaths,
Cutting me off the trick that you played on me
Leading me on, only to discover you were my impending doom

So let me free; I'm in this world where I can barely breathe,
My veins are shrinking away
To be consumed,
My heart was all you wanted
So now you have it, eat it up carefully
It's been poisoned by all the fish in the sea

So you cast me out?
Did I feel as satisfied as I did in the water below you?

So what have I been robbed of?
As I barely had a thing before,
I knew it was you when I walked in without a door
And saw that everything I once loved was gone

Pulling the Trigger

Whatever happened to the lines we drew at the beginning of battle?
When the guns are pulled we turned our backs and keep on walking
So you say, I'd rather be scared than dead
Somebody save me now

For all the days spent
I was looking down the barrel of those guns
These words we say,
Forever shooting for dreams

Well keep singing your crazy love songs
In pacing you out
They call me a heavy dreamer but
My nightmares don't compare to reality

Whatever happened to sublimity?
The holsters keep holding the bullets in place
But my heart ain't racing
It's not holding any pace

Well if I keep the barrel pointing your way,
I'm sure I will figure out the problems someday
So pulling the trigger might be the scariest part
When my own death is on my own heart

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Moments before I left
And the days that followed,
I knew that if I looked into your eyes, you'd never see me again

So say what you want to say,
Lie to my face and make it seem like I can stay
But I know my demons are catching up now

So swallow your pride and allow all of the shame to swell up in your voice when you tell me that it is my time to walk away

The rain is pouring down on our backs
And behind us lies the past,
Remember me now you say,
As we forget who we are

We spend hours trying to walk in someone else's shoes but we forget where ours have been
And the soles have now eroded,
With the simplicity of broken tongues

There is no shame in spilling our guts tonight,
All it takes is one pointing finger down our throats and everything comes back up

I'd keep running to your doorsteps but you haven't convinced me that I am worth your time