Drowning Upward

forget about the point of the city
past the city streets, down a few dirt roads
while the world is asleep, the nightlife comes alive

past the trees, down a few side trails,
it's hard to remember that we've come this far
while the world is asleep, the nightlife comes alive

forget about the countryside,
it's harder to see the point of the city
while you are lost in the sea in the sky

I wish I could get an answer to my inner thoughts,
what's it like up there, if it exists?
drowning upward in lust, I'm losing it all

this is not what I recall anymore
vague memories of a time where I was lighter
all I know to be real is far gone

in the brisk seconds I had left on the ground
I overlooked an entire ocean
losing a will for words, I buckle under the current

they say we all land here,
like passing fishes on the shore,
there is no swimming back home

no one can judge me,
except for you
but I was human, not a saint

I started this journey drowning upward
but in the end of it all,
I was floating down to earth