That Conspicuous Something

blow your numbers on the screen
wind up somewhere you don't belong
know where you came from

blow your numbers on this ticket
wind up winning a free trip to somewhere new
know who you were becoming

blow your numbers on the daily four
wind up lower in your social class
know that it was not worth coming

blow your numbers on your telephone
wind up speechless talking about your whole life
know that you can go where you need to

that conspicuous something waving out the door
thought home was replacable
well that though was wasted on the kitchen floor

blow up your lover to size her down
wind up with your lover with one size less
know that your lover was going to leave

I placed you in my life
I placed you in my time
I placed you in my trash

you know what color your bags are
and how much luggage you carry around
me and my self confidence will carry around our own body

are you understanding?
over the mountain you created
forget about what  I promised

about the late night fights
me and my self confidence will get over it
because you have your own ego to conquer

I am not leaving town tonight,
am I leaving for good?
done like burnt toast

yes, I am going to be gone for a while