Silent Of Course

the nicest smell to fade through my blood vessels

nothing to take to taste

after all hours that I've put in to you

data center is in need of some repairs
the walkway to the concrete is the way you approach our next moves,
if you feel normal again, I will wade in the ocean built by millipedes searching for my heart
as now I know what it all meant
the things you were afraid of made me forget where I found love with you
already someone cares immensely spelled out the code it took to break this vault
and these vivid dreams are making sense to me before it gets too late
though my fingers move slowly through your dress, I only intend to undress
our machine is well greased and stirringly built
in the midst of this open well the ocean sprays back the pain we left at our ankles
as you sit there, silent of course, I didn't know what I wasn't doing all along

The Lay of the Land

now that I've been around, I'm getting use to this new feeling
some people say hello when I'm leaving
as much as you say this world is falling apart
I know it's coming together
now however I know my way around you and I feel like a new toy
pull me higher than yesterday and lay me back down on my feet
my only feeling for life is the implemented love
only you should know
I love you as much as you deserve it
only for you I count the stars
you are a separate galaxy
the simple feeling of you is the simple work of time
you are my perfect star
now that I know the lay of the land
I can lay next to you at night with a smile

This Eclipse

for Jessica

we walk on the ocean floor, though gravity doesn't allow
we stay sturdy on the boat, while hanging off the bow-
here we sit, alone again, sounding off at the slightest shot from the gun
you are my moon, eclipsing this sun

you pull them in, just to erase time spent at shore
when I thought I was filled with love, you spilled in some more
this is reality as time goes by,
this is love, and nobody knows why

it's not the way you smile that takes me higher
it's not the way you talk that makes me fire,
as you are my moon
well will both show off our love closer to noon

you will show your curves to the face of the world
asking them to understand -
if it's not the weight of the world
then its the way you play your hand

you are my beautiful eclipse
and you will always be my beautiful ellipse

Carry Me (neverleave)

we've spent
so much time getting this chord progression down
you've been plucking at my heart
letting me see that you are my violinist

keep up the pace and promise me you'll never leave
you are the carrier of my room key, you are safe and alone in here

we've spent
every waking moment figuring out how to configure our love just right
you take my bandwidth and make it measurable
keep on saying that our love is unbreakable
not even an outside force can break us now

and as she laid next to me she had her arm tucked behind her back
I went to go grab her arm so she could hold me
and as love works she was holding onto someone elses hand
and all I know is that I'm feeling pretty pessimistic right now.

carry me somewhere needless of rest,
back into your arms
is often rated the best
call me from far away and say you'll never leave

if you stay in my heart you can
never leave, never leave, never leave me alone
as long as you stay here tonight to carry me with you
throughout the rest of our days

carry me for the rest of your life, because you've already picked me off the ground
and set me sailing with you in my own personal boat
left with cheap vodka and remainders of you
under the captains set you lay tied up so that you will sink into the bottom of my broken blue heart

if you say, in my heart you can
never leave, you won't ever leave you will never leave me alone
and throughout this universe we sail through, your eyes turn
back to blue, black to blue,
you will always be, it will always be, just me and you

Carry Me poster for you to keep :D

A Devotion of More than A Mess Left from Last Words Written by the Author of an Untouched Book

it's pointless to say, you're making me happy
live
analytical
self obsessed
human

it's pointless to tell the world you're making me live again
fully
completely
thoroughly
senselessly

you've burdened me with your past mistakes
words
worlds
hopes
dreams

you've decided I am all you've ever wanted
dreamed of
hoped for
wanted
needed

well truth be told, you are the fix to this broken mold
now something can come of me that you have swung my way
I live every moment to be able to say
you have the last hands I ever want to hold

well the truth is what almost ruined us
now something selfish to say of me is that I don't want anyone else to meet you
I live every song I write you for me to have goals for the ones that are two
you have the best heart for holding on through all the fuss

Carry Me (followthrough)

you alienate me from the whole world
in our perspective, you are promising the whole world

carry me or marry me, either way, I need you to hold on to what we have left
carcasses are rotting in the streets behind us, it's safe to say we saved each other from
being lost

well, this city is in flames for its past
so oh-my-God save me from all the mistakes I've made

you broke this robot and built it back from scrap pieces you were holding onto
well this is coming full circle love, and you don't fall far from the center of all this pain

carry me or marry me, but don't leave me waiting at the alter for your computer worlds last phrases
carry me, and keep on following through
this is all I've ever needed to become a man
was someone else to build me up with my broken heart being replaced

Carry Me (faraway)

ash trays filled with nicotine from your jumping lips
if it's just making you nervous now, then you better keep on this ride

rollercoaster is spinning out of control,
rollercoaster is falling to pieces,
well if it's not obvious,
this car is all thats keeping me from the ground

some simple safe words, maybe I should've listened to
keep your hands inside, keep your body parts in the ride

tightly ease up on your words, and fasten the bars,
if you don't do this, then you'd better expect nothing less
than death

rollercoaster, is spinning out of control,
rollercoaster, is breaking down on us
well if it's not obvious,
our cars are crashing into eachothers

rollercoaster, you were just supposed to be a ride
rollercoaster, now I am falling apart
carry me, medics,
carry me far away,
well I never wanna look back
and I never want to see this fucking town again

Carry Me as you do

Three versions of Carry Me are to be written on top of the original.
<3 SHANE/SHAYNE

Carry Me (carryme)

the sun exerts its force on all of us down here
it shows our true colors hoping people are paying enough attention

the moon dances in place for all of us down here
it shows us the waves that build up over time hoping people are paying enough attention

in the morning, we will lay here with broken arms and closed hearts
in the evening, we will try to make with beaten eyes and shutters on our feet

walking through the ceiling, my relentless parody of a life is coming to a cut
walking through the door, my relentless eyes have come to a close

so carry me, carry me
in your arms is where I'll be

though the sky is waiting for you, so am I
forgive me for these tears you let out

waking up in the morning of a wakening
a burial of time holds you down

beaten through the race of time
you need to keep on running

so carry me, carry me
as though I am surviving with your help

End of the Conversation

this is a new version of the poem, without being the same poem at all

there is no reason to believe anymore, that the town I was in before
has any value to me at all
the remainder of the fact, the remainder of the equation is,
you and I, and thats the way it ought to be
my heart has been fixed with your hot metal and touch for love
the first part is, the hardest part of all
when you are coming from, a place so distant and distracting you can forget
what it is like to feel alive in the first place
so trust me when I, when I say that I am your new home and you have the ability to
decorate accordingly, according to me and the rest of the world who wants to be
in our position
all signs point this way, all signs point to you
if you are the tornado you say you are, then I am your perfect storm
and if you wind up slowing down, letting go of me, I can't say that I will be able to let go too

When I Woke Up

you were there next to me,
staring off into space wondering about rocket ships and religion
I had disbelief that I had fallen, but for the moment I realized,
your hand was on my head
and there we were, on my makeshift bed

when I woke up, and saw your beautiful face
I realized that you being in my heart was you being in place
your smile and your wandering eyes  made me sweat out my fears
that you could lay next to me for the rest of my years

you were here, where I lay,
staring off into space wondering if I was here for you
I had disbelief when you walked away
my hands were on my face,
as I tried to put together why you left this place

when I woke up, and saw you had left,
I walked around in confusion
it still smelled like you, you were hiding somewhere nearby
when I told you I loved you,
with a slight bit of concern, you asked why?

my best answer to your riddle will always stay the same
because when I woke up, I saw your beautiful face

Marguerite

so grandma, they're putting a time on you
you are timeless and trusting
without you, I could never have witnessed life
I believe that God has a weird way of working around these things
across a border, I cannot escape to see you when I need to
for now on, I will keep praying he decides to keep you around
for my own selfish reasons, I love you

so grandma, you're still the same as I remember
you are worthy of all time and effort, trust me
without you, our family could never have been this way
I believe you will be in heaven where you deserve to be
across the borders people dare me to say, I know you will always live on
for now on, I will make new memories of you so I won't be able to regret this past year
for my own selfish reasons, I love you


-for my grandmothers
grandma c, I am so glad you are beating cancer
grandma r, I hope God is merciful and cures you

Maker

make me girl
make me want to be here
make me see the world
make me be who I want to be
make me see who you are to me
make me try the luck of the barrel
make me girl, make me fade away into the night
make me a traitor
make me a liar
make me a better man
make me happy

A Desolate Martyr

the males perspective on doing something right
greed takes care of the poison left in this bite
if you bite into me, it will change the lives after us

keep your fingers crossed so I can tie them down
you have lost your mind, you will lose your mind
nothing in this territory is off limits except for you

the males perspective is doing something unprecedented
who writes the rules you say I must follow?
is there anyone out there watching over me?

keep waiting for this to come to a conclusion
meanwhile I have lost my last bit of common sense
when I go out all you will have to pay for my choices

the males perspective on a desolate martyr waiting on a clocks hand
if the point is there but nobody cares it won't make you important
it will just keep destroying us all like Adam and Eve

Just Eat Something So I Can Arrive

the new topic everyone is unaware of makes this life a different choice
if this alcohol doesn't consume me in in adverted distractions keeping the wheel in front of me
I will do more than chase my own tail through this town
if you haven't let it grow on you yet, this isn't something unrelated to my first life

as the last chapter ended the pen touches the paper right where it left off before,
this story is far from over, and the basics have only been founded
as far as I can ever get with you, like a car low on gas
I hope I wind up somewhere new and familiar

they expected wings to grow out, well nothing is ever going to work out just so
as you walked away I could barely let my grip lose enough to let you go
the most amazing color is just fading through the window
as you thought once before hand, I'd rather you just be here now.

The Door

barge on in and explain to me all about the mistakes I'm making without you in my life
remind me just why I adore your attempt to keep it casual
as usual I spend countless hours with you in my dreams
but thats not something I'd ever tell you

if you're gone for good, then I hope that where you go is so much better
I hope that the door you hold the key to still works, but if not don't worry,
I leave often enough to tell you wanted in
as long as the door is wide open, you can walk in and take over

save the girl, save her from herself, don't let her be hurt
don't remember the pain it caused to see her
save the girl, save her from someone else, don't let her be hurt
don't remember that she hurt you all those nights,

the door you hold the key to doesn't open with occupants in mind,
you can open it if you only mean to
you can't leave it more messed up than you arrived in
but babe, I hope I come busting down your doors to find you waiting for me

The Distraction of Silence Shortly Followed by The Length of The Chalkboard

this is untypical and mostly unusual but for what it's worth,
I hope you find yourself sooner than later
I know you're holding on to something that is thin and might be scary
the fall isn't far down but it leads to an unconventional abnormality

this fall isn't too far from over, but this dream will carry on through the summer
laughing about space and how nonexistent anything turns out to be
we are equidistant from figuratively figuring out this mess of simplicity
falling through the space that consumes the lack of space
the distraction that is the awkward silence carries heavy messages about heaven

thus far, you've shown that you're skin can be tampered with to look like a short wave of consumation
thus far, I've been lost in the situations lost by bragging rights that turn into arguments proving that there is no
happiness available in this situation regarding her restlessness

I'm not sick of you, I'm just sick that you can't become a stone in my hand
if I ever rubbed you wrong, I was just trying to make sure you didn't leave my bed side
not the way sticks and stones were supposed to be, but life changes gravity when everything dissolves
when you make me happy, I forget about the situation we walked into without our cane

Half Uniformed Reliving Torment

you picked me up from my bottomless pit
swept the dirt off my back and sent me on my way
under the impression you had wanted an impression
I gave you a reason for love

here, underneath retrieving turnovers
you made out with some other memory

there was no point in the needle you put in my arm
if you are to be my drug, you should be my only high
this sand castle didn't build itself
all it takes is a little push to fall apart

how underestimated reliving this, have I become
the last moment I recall you being happy was in my arms

at no point did I ever say I wanted this to be a bigger scene
the cargo fell off this sinking ship and waded out into the ocean scene
through the waves pulling forward and falling under
currently the current is pulling me down

hurt from all the time you forgot
I guess it was never that important

Genuine Used Sale, Stays In Empty Dialogue Until Pardoned

a little bit extra for me means you still have something to show up with
a little bit of a smile, lightly swiping across your face
rosy cheeks, bright and lit up
rosy eyes, clearly worth looking forward to

hands small but just right
gussied up for me tonight

a little bit of perfume for me means you still have something to show up with
a little bit of fresh air, lightly brushing past your shimmering hair
rosy flesh, clearly worth looking at
rosy eyes, clearly brighter than ever

hand in hand, they fit like a puzzle
gussied up for me tonight

lovingly I find the ability to release your hand and twirl you around

and remind you why I am still here

"il ya un peu plus d'amour pour vous ici"

Saturday, A Day Like You/Sadly

well if it all adds up baby then keep on playing
the number game you keep winning
I am here waiting for redemption but I keep on swearing
wishing you would hear

oh, another day, you say, we can make this work out
oh, another day, you say, we can talk this all out

as the city shines, you walk for the sun, glowing, glowing
we bow down, cause we know you're the Queen
a day like you, a day so beautiful

oh, another day, you say, we could have worked out
oh, they say, you keep trying to find a way out

laying next to you, I don't know what to say
laying next to you, I ask for one more day
"what is this little beauty of a girl doing to herself?"
"how does she do that walk, strutting everything?"

oh, another day, like you, oh so beautiful
oh, another year, goes by, and I guarantee you'll miss this fall

so keep on spinning me around in this chair, off its axle, keeps me spinning
around,
you can say, whatever you may believe, but if you stay, I will never leave
this Saturday, a day like you,
I lost the best thing due to you

you won't lose your shine, if you promise
you'll be mine.

Like The Universe

so you owe us all one last bow out,
we've all seen the work you've been able to do
wake the ground and make the life spread out

the beautiful stars, glowing for others to know where they are going
the beautiful scars, you glow tonight to know where we are going now
we are not people, we are human beings, trying to explore emotions
and with yours in the bowl, who is to know what kind of creation is to come out

you are the beautiful white, on this piece of paper
one man decided to lay you next to me, with a smile that is definitely yours
you have the beautiful white, on one last sheet of paper
as I decided to lay next to you, my smile faded in the glowing of the dark situation

like the universe, you are made up of many other planets, complex and far too distant
afraid of bringing a new traveler down this road, time will tell that it is going to repeat
God left us here to deplete, over time only you will know
because like the universe, only you are in control

the trick I have up my sleeve somehow disappeared in the moments that followed your decision
not that being the trick in my heart to keep it moving the blood through my stone cold body
as my feet fall asleep, all I wonder is if the words you've said to me were the ones you were trying to form
you are a few feet fall asleep, as all wonder if this is the galaxy, but you are my milky way, beautiful and
home to the natural selection I decided to make for you

don't fall down through the holes you dug yourself
because ultimately I was supposed to fill them for you
you are the last universe for everyone
as you bend through my arms, I feel like you are still the right decision
you will always make my heart recharge,
you shall always be the heart of the worlds we explored together, if only that week would've expanded

if only this wasn't harder for me than I recite, my holes previously waited  for you
but you clocked out early
I guess you have your own side project to expand

Devices

rattle me in to a shape of uniform inability to be complete
strangle me dead, keep on holding on to me
this ride is starting to fall apart
don't you know I've never been known to let this go
but I did it for you because you are the one who keeps holding on
don't go yet we just walked in the door,
don't let go yet, I'm still falling down, I'm still holding on to you
devices pulled, keeps me floating down to you
devices pulled, keeps me floating down

rattle me to the size of a box so small you can hardly see
hide me in your pocket, like your own device
use me, use me, when ever you need, just don't let me die,
don't let me die here in your arms
didn't you know, there is room for you here
devices pulled, are devices used to save your life
devices pulled, out of your pocket used to make your life easier

rattle me, rattle me, don't let me go, I swear I will work for you
as long as I have to
rattle me, into the shape of a heart, and change your batteries
you cannot die, as long as I am here in your arms
you cannot die, as long as I am in your heart
you will never die

rattle me, like the cage, tap on my glass
wait for me to respond, take me home tonight
show me what love is like
I waited for you, I waited for you
I will always be your device

The Dangerous Line We Walk When We Fall In Love

so simply put it seems like this is just my way to stay alive
you say love is nothing to look down on
and as amazing as you are, I keep looking up
with the eyes I follow, you follow my tears to their resting ground
as you find a way to underestimate the value in a word
the dangerous line we walk when we fall in love is saying it out loud
sleeping at night, hoping it doesn't come back to haunt us
the dangerous life we walk when we fall in love is announcing it now
we stay asleep here, hoping we wake up next to eachother
but when you stay the night I know you are mine, just to float away
oh as long as you float away with me
you will always need to know
my life is on the line, and I am trusting you to see

Like The Sun

I want you to keep my flesh golden
I only see you for a few hours a day,
but you always find a way to keep me warm

when you fade into the ground
it makes me curious who else feels this way
always and forever, I feel like you know where I am going

chasing the sky you are the most beautiful thing
as you make your way down
as a fever spreads its legs across this mattress

you will reflect on my life tonight
making me decide if I want to wake in the morning
if only winter never came

you are so bright
you are so wrong
you are someone elses sun right now

Baby, Really I Think That (I Will) Always Need You

ever since I faded in, slowly I am growing in my presence,
the song I present for you is one all about you
nothing I have to say is going to change who you decide you need
if it saves me, I think that I will always need you

spin me around to the point where I can't walk straight,
bring me around to the point where I can't walk again
take me around to the point where I can't walk farther

recall the nights while we found our feet so sore from the long distance
that we decided to conquer
my fallen footsteps were there for you, anchoring in minutes of your voice
the song birds keep on singing in my throat

wake me in the morning to tell me that my chances are fading out
bring me in the morning to tell me that my chances are falling like stock
spin me in the morning to tell me that my chances are gaining on you

maybe this is poison to me, but you're killing me
fading the cushion in the background noise, we've rested our heads upon them
they are not pillows, but the pills I swallow should take care of that
the black turning tide makes the machine wash us through

spin the light around my face, I'm not breaking character
bring the light around my face, I'm not breaking hearts
break the light around my face, I'm not breaking you

baby, really I think that I will always need you
you feed my blood the oxygen to keep them breathing
while you fade away into the city street with them
I feel tempted to scream your name

Like The Stars

in this universe, there are plenty of fish in the sky
between the verses, there will be more of you than I find normal
believing reasons I try to answer nothing yet, you are beautiful
nobody you have previously loved will tell you, but you are rediculous
a man once relapsed, you are perfect

like the stars, there are many fish in the sky
because this galaxy is so small, I must use my outside sources
however, my sources say, you are too good
to be true.
the way you hold the weight you carry, the burden you
relieve yourself of, makes my heart fall over dead

you remind me of when I was happier than I am now
like the stars, your eyes burn so bright
you make the ocean breathe, pull and weigh the fish
you show the birds that nighttime isn't always so bad
at midnight we'll take off and fare so far away

like the way, your lips move closer to mine
while cutting phrases from the techincal mans dictionary
while I am falling in love,
you are bouncing on going backwards
but I promise, I am the right one

the sky is stripping for me
hopefully you will show some skin, or
maybe even some heart, he's a thief of a kind,
stealing what he doesn't deserve, all I need is
to bring real ideas to the atmosphere - now you

like the stars, I find myself naturally attracted to staring
watching you fade into someone elses vision of perfect

Another Monday Of Religion/Because Rebecca Is Trying To Awake Norah Young

a new day came and went
left me swinging in circles
I thought you'd already be on my fingertips
you eluded it yet again

because of you, I wake up late in the night
due to this situation, I find myself lost in you
another monday of religion will show me what I'm missing
because Rebecca is trying too hard

nothing you say can or will stop me this time around
you're the star, in the shooting sky
because I find myself dangling from your wrist
you have me charmed

I never thought I'd find love elsewhere
so I bet you never would've thought I'd expect to find you
discovering where you begin, my life is a waterfall
try to wake her, to wake her, to wake her

Norah Young stays away on all four wheels
alone and asleep watching her other life come together

Drowning Upward

forget about the point of the city
past the city streets, down a few dirt roads
while the world is asleep, the nightlife comes alive

past the trees, down a few side trails,
it's hard to remember that we've come this far
while the world is asleep, the nightlife comes alive

forget about the countryside,
it's harder to see the point of the city
while you are lost in the sea in the sky

I wish I could get an answer to my inner thoughts,
what's it like up there, if it exists?
drowning upward in lust, I'm losing it all

this is not what I recall anymore
vague memories of a time where I was lighter
all I know to be real is far gone

in the brisk seconds I had left on the ground
I overlooked an entire ocean
losing a will for words, I buckle under the current

they say we all land here,
like passing fishes on the shore,
there is no swimming back home

no one can judge me,
except for you
but I was human, not a saint

I started this journey drowning upward
but in the end of it all,
I was floating down to earth

You Can't Drink Beer In Moderation Without Paying Attention To Detail

if gravity quits, than so will I
never backing down from the battlefield
if the world stops spinning, I will land against your body
never falling off the horse means never learning any lessons

you can't drink beer tonight
you can't drink beer tonight
if you wanted to breathe it all in, you'd be drowning in alcohol
if you wanted to drink it all, you'd be spinning in alcohol

nobody reads what I have to say anymore
so I guess it's safe to say whatever I want
I miss the scent of her clothing
at least she cared about what I had to say

if this is on the house, I'm having another keg
you can drink until you puke, but you have to drink slowly
watch the world spin around you and all you hear is
the sound of everyone else's life go forward

who's to say life's not fair?
we all must go through it all though
I march forward tonight so I look through your window
hoping I can clear it all up with you

back when I had a heart
I use to let girls like you tear me apart
back when I was young
I use to let demons like you get to my heart

well I still am drunk off your bottle of hope
sticking around for the chances of slipping up with you
you are my after party
but you can't drink beer in moderation without paying for it

you tell me to put my best foot forward,
you obviously forget I'm crippled by your absence
you keep running away
you keep running to someone else

am I still without life?
I Sleep In Rags hoping for you to keep me spinning
I can be your broken top
or your spilled beer on your favorite shirt

Like The Moon

the most beautiful thing you've ever said
in a conversation that never started
you are the baby girl I've never had
you have eyes like the moon

pull me, pull me
if you keep coming closer I will become blinded
the way your hips move have me in a killer dance vibe

pull me, pull me
if you keeping going down, you might get stuck in worse position
than I have been in

in a conversation of desperations
you told me you were desperate for my attention
so gun ho you have me at attention
if you keep staring at me, like the moon

push me, push me
so far away I will not be able to breathe
let me stay in space so I can be light headed

push me, push me
so far to say, I will never be seen again
I love girls with colored hair so light brown

in a conversations awkward moment
I realized we all have a hidden side
one so dark no light can even be found
two sided coins like you are the moon

That Conspicuous Something

blow your numbers on the screen
wind up somewhere you don't belong
know where you came from

blow your numbers on this ticket
wind up winning a free trip to somewhere new
know who you were becoming

blow your numbers on the daily four
wind up lower in your social class
know that it was not worth coming

blow your numbers on your telephone
wind up speechless talking about your whole life
know that you can go where you need to

that conspicuous something waving out the door
thought home was replacable
well that though was wasted on the kitchen floor

blow up your lover to size her down
wind up with your lover with one size less
know that your lover was going to leave

I placed you in my life
I placed you in my time
I placed you in my trash

you know what color your bags are
and how much luggage you carry around
me and my self confidence will carry around our own body

are you understanding?
over the mountain you created
forget about what  I promised

about the late night fights
me and my self confidence will get over it
because you have your own ego to conquer

I am not leaving town tonight,
am I leaving for good?
done like burnt toast

yes, I am going to be gone for a while

Restart My Heart

well we both know I'm worthless
I'm pointless
I'm the bow facing tide
nothing can uncover me as I will eventually make away
the pathetic part is the most important
she calls concerned
I'm not giving up
I'm simply facing my fate
and if I never said it once, I will say it now
I'm not the man I should have been
if you breakaway
the bullet of life will shred the moments from the perspective
I hope this made you see me as the guy who fell laying
the timing is five past previously
so carry on pretty faces
you never cared in the first place
restart my heart for the bonus

Becoming Rich In The Taste of A New Year

swiftly they called it swinging
motion sickness acquired laying in a graveyard
the lay of the land cuts off right before you
so you called him the reason
well I will call him the reason, why you will never be happy
moving through molasses, survival tactics, breathe in and forget
becoming rich in the time now among you
becoming rich in the time now ending you
oh I don't care technically how to spell it out
oh I don't know well enough the way you move
and I could never smell you enough from across the room
the book's binding kept
the pages of romance together forcibly
but the pages screamed "oh how can you sleep? oh how can you breathe?"
there is no taste quite like you
there is not time wasted on you
marvel on the keyword
next to you lays a son of a bitch who doesn't
give a fuck anymore
because you don't give a fuck anymore
now is time to swear in tears,
move squirrel before I run you over
move slut before I mow you down
there is nothing left for me
there is nothing left
there is nothing
there is only you
forgive the vile in the marquee
but how else am I supposed to put her out?
who better than the stench that violates the air?
better you than me
and I will take her with me to the pawn shop tonight
so I can fucking go home empty handed

Forget I Ever...

Last year, I was really into my vision for The Paper Heart, but it never came out like I wanted. Yes it is available to buy online but I want to really do what I had wanted.
So here's what I am going to do; all the poems of the 08-09 years, sorted out by topics [most likely Love and Relationships] a breakdown on my favorite poems and the lesser ones, what I didn't like about them.
If you like this idea, reply and let me know. For now, I am titling it "Forget I Ever..."
Most likely I am going to make the cover art be "the bird"

In Rockets, In Space

to answer you questions
I never closed the door
the author writes slowly
vague periods pronounce sadly
I never let you go and you never left
there is a capital here for you to see yourself fit
the journeys of my life have taken me farther than I'd rather see
places I'd never go to hurt those who I'd rather be
I saw the opportunity to meet fists, hearts and brains
if it seemed like I stopped caring about you
the mad trickster got to you
the bad news is I am still right here
the bad news is I am still not there
the bad news is I am still not right
where do I go from here?
In Rockets, I will steal the heart straight from the dragon
In Space, I will steal the wind you pushed me away with
there was no time left in this reality
if I could go back I wouldn't
I stopped counting bodies before you
those I've hurt may be limited but until tomorrow ceases to exist
my greatest creation may just be the idea of you somehow fitting in
the last subject I need to address is five hours long, twenty eight minutes longer
the greatest objection you will adhere to is nothing shorter than time left on the clock
where do I go from there?
In Rockets, your name spells out the favorite place in my perspective
In Space, you become my version of a perfect persona to play the role
of the one I never knew was there
I have to reduce the space to get you here
through the day we need to race for commitment
don't believe that I'm committed to forgetting you
In Reality, I Swear this is only the second page in the prelude
prior to what you don't know
this is all you've discovered
as my story continues on, my dear protagonist

Restart My Heart

fading through the violence
reset my feet on the ground
pavement seems less concrete
every one is now against a wall

fading the line she can't resist
slowly it disappears and she
trips over the fishing lure
every day is now against the clock

fading the hairline as time goes by
I restart this broken car
leaving this broken town
every mile is another fight I will encounter

fading the background noise
my head falls against a more permanent home
trusting the ground that I will never leave again
every body is another liar just showing up for a card

fading your face into the foreground
my eyes degauss your face
you used your jumper cables
every picture I paint you will paint yourself in

Early This Afternoon [Estimated Time of Arrival]

the left side of this conversation,
stopped listening five minutes ago
so lets just,
take it slow
I never thought that I could be this way

the right side of the bed, collapsed and became the center
your attention up here please, the show is about to begin
so lets just,
take it slow
I never thought that we would, turn out this way

if I'm just too lazy
then don't beat yourself up
I'm just not up to it
but I still be missing you baby

if I'm too sleazy for my own good
then turn out your heart for a cleansing
I'm just not up to it
but I'm still beating myself up to remember you

the left side of this conversation
stopped listening five minutes ago
but the right side of the argument
had a point facing their temple
rushing through their face at 160

lonely, rushed and anxious - this city is nothing
more than just a jail cell
early this afternoon we shall see who still remains
prisoner

broken by the wristwatch,
the wrist watches it hands snap at others
through the end of this ride
all involved will ask just one last question

where do wind up in the end?
as awkward silence falls upon,
somehow dramatically
I will pronounce "nowhere"

If It Matters After All

if it matters after all
then what am I still writing to you for?
I can go about writing the same cliche words down
but how much would make it through?

if it matters after all
then can I go about saying you are poison?
how much smoke can I blow before I start to see your
perspective?

if it matters after all
then you should go first and say what matters now

if it matters after all
then these words don't matter now

When Forever Ends

First of all, before you read this, this poem is most likely the most important one I've written of all that I have ever. The meaning behind it all is deep in my heart, so don't think of this as just another poem.

there walked the sky, falling down a step or so
it chose this suitcase because it found it fitting to carry
there walked a guy, falling down a step or so
broke his ankle and dropped his self esteem

a day came without a clear sky, blue and silver
as a white blanket covered her to keep her warm
a minute flew by and without a clear reason why, she was blue and silver
she saw him for the first time, dropped her jaw and froze up

time went on and on that first night, if you want to call it first impressions,
they had something more impressing
when she asked him for a few minutes
he said "until I can hear no more words from your lips"

under the impression that this is ever lasting, they stole the towns heart
for what was evident was bulk and consuming their energy
while they were in each others premises neither could sleep
she said "when forever ends"

the coincidental slip up came in a matter of minutes, as he saw one stone fall
from above, dropping from the sky no matter they were falling like stones
"when forever ends?" he asked
only the sky determines when forever ends

almost in love, their pillows became their enemies
and their houses turned into prisons
marked the time in books, there was time for a different day
but not with you in mind, there was no time for a different life

love is like the antidote to life
if without it you can't live, then you need it
but when forever ends, what is life?
if without it you can't live, then you need it

you could always regret it afterward, but in reality I swear,
we will make through this in time
I loved this town for the both of you
but I had to leave this life for without you, forever remains unsolved

she said birds and bees, I said love it while its there
when forever ends, where will you be?
I said I would sail there for you, but I'm not going anywhere without you
she said I will be there for you, but I'm not going anywhere without you

and suddenly, like a falling bird, who has lost ability to use his reflexes
I'm falling without you, and I will hit the rock bottom unable to recover
suddenly I am no longer looking forward to tomorrow
I'm just hoping that when I'm in your arms, is when forever ends.

Expellation of My Deepest Fears, Combustion of the Busted Fenceline

I guess I missed my window of opportunity

I had to figure out it was not her fault after all

when I tried to be a man

I swallowed every last bite of my fear

oh if I am just a boy, then let me out to go play

but if I am just a man, then take me out of the day

because who would've thought that you would stay?

my fathers opportunity to share it with me, was

seconds too late

when I got on that plane, I never came back home

when he missed me, I never could get back home

if I am just a boy, and nothing else, then at least I have time to figure

out this bad dream

but I am just a man, and something else, this is becoming the worst

nightmare one could ever see

I grew up by a few feet and yet my feet stayed cemented on the grounds

that the best communication is regarded as disapproval.

I grew up about a few feet away from here and painted my name in the cement

just to communicate with the ground

I am here today without a trace of doubt in my mind that tomorrow will take

a breath away,

but I breathe knowing that my breath is held back by my subconcious's palm

blazed by the temperature of this conversation she put out the fire in my heart

but with it dampened it can not come back on

I am just a black hole sucking in everything that comes my way

wait until you see what I expel

Someone I Relied In

it took some guts to come this far
and the words that you showed me were mistaken
the baby blue shirt that you moved away from my hands
and our backs sat there while our mouths made love

and I could have thought for a moment that I was safe in this cabinet
but I threw you aside the china and tore your back up with a nice piece of
glass

with out a shower to use, a second seemed to be a minute
and we made out like bandits
the baby blue sky dimmed to purple haze, covered by black clouds
and our backs just sat there while our mouths made love

regardless of how far you could toss me, I was outside of your zone
nothing could stop us, not even the phone

it wasn't making love anymore, it was just kidding around
maybe somewhere else there would be a need for this kind of passion
but this car is speeding down a 15
and our backs just sat there while our eyes made love

holding on to your hands, the hatred for me slowly faded away
because we both know it was never worth it

if you could have seen the sky turn pink tonight in this galaxy
maybe somewhere else, from a telescope you would know why I have
started to fall asleep with your song in my head
and our backs just sat there while our hearts made out like bandits

like someone I relied in, your name was no longer a metaphor
I just had you backwards on the table

If Your Mother Was Here, What Would I Think?

she blows kisses in my direction
another fatal mistake I made
by believing that she was looking at me
it's the guy behind every time
and now must observe the floor
the gentle fold of her arms
telling me that everything is fine
was I just an opaque sheet of tears
to be worn with pride?
what a steady fall of leaves
she makes me change myself
and meet the ground just to stare at her wishing I was
where I use to be
so say you're sorry or not regretting
all the pain -
here it goes again
not collapsing correctly

And Then She Tells Me One Last Thing

before the sun comes back down, we have one last chance to arrive back home
so she says to me that this is just fine, the way that
it had been intended
because the last girl who treads in this watered down version of a heart
will at the end of the night, have left me here for granted, a much lesser of the man that had originally walked this way
now we share this ground as one technically connected in more ways than the average stranger
and what is stranger than that is who we've seen is yet to be what our fears led us away from
so tonight we will lay under the sorbus tree that has more feathers than that of the most graceful birds
we go together to somewhere further than any ideal will allot of our hopes
you will be told to hold my hand at the noctis moments of life
but I am a type of pill that holds no grudges and never lets go
and then she tells me one last thing
"I have no room for love in my heart"
and then she tells me she loves me, because I am the last one she can tell before she knows
I'll be the first one to reply the same

Ten Cats With Only Fourteen Legs [REVISTED]

we'll never walk through this city together
we'll never get to know what else is out there
you should have seen what we had back then
we should have known what had been planned out for us

your bed is our favorite place with our eyes focused on
what is going on in the television and not enough in between us
and yet you are everything stuck between us like kernel of popcorn
in desperate need of being removed

We spent our summer together and we missed
our chances to eat ice cream under the summer heat
and complain about how much we hate it
and where our parents went wrong on behalf of our aging process

We gave up the idea of spending time on the
shore and take a classical sundown picture
to sit and fight over who was right
when the sun went down neither one of us had a clue

if I could play make believe with you I will be who
you want me to be so I can just make you happier
and if I could make you smile then I will feel lighter
but then I realize your becoming the type of crane that floats away

I wish I wasn't always making you cry
some nights I hope that you don't give up
but I can't become the only one in your universe
and you can't be the only star on stage

I'm not saying that you aren't the greatest thing
I'm just saying that you aren't the only thing there

I just hope that we will act like we fell in love
in a bookstore, and we will feel like our smiles
are part of a face lift
but we both know that your blood runs cold most nights

if you wanted me to say it clearer
I won't ever forget our late night walks
but now you've got me paralyzed and I can't get back on my feet

If I Was A Wishing Well, I'm Going for Broke

so they took me down by the river and left me stranded
to find any sense in who I am, when I have barely landed
the man they were looking at was just a case to a broken guitar
and with nothing important to hold, I must've been deemed useless

you must've been redeemed when you found out you were important to hold
and that the man you were looking at was more than just broken
we will find sense in who we are when we are barely falling
we can wash our pains away down by the river and we'll be calling

as the seconds fall down the wall there is a loss of time for this world to exist
and without a bomb in clear sight, there is a loss of something more than just you and I

we will see where this phrase gets us, but if its up to them we'll fall a few cents short
and if I was a wishing well, I'm going for broke and calling this shot of love a little side dish
where do we really remain at the end of the day?
and they called me fake.

a heart so fresh in to the world gave me a reason to believe that its possibly actuality
and as our breathing slows down, or as our hearts start to race, there is no finish line for love
just a starting point that is only at once determined.

In Reality I Swear, We Will Get Through This On Time

between the trees, I can see you running this way
I’m underneath a rock, with my back turned to the ocean
above the clouds, I can still feel His presence.

I walk through this two dimensional world hoping to find something with texture
all of our shading is incorrect, and our anatomy is slightly configured in a different way.

we can’t compare bruises from here, we will have to wait until the sky falls closer.
in reality I swear, we will get through this on time, but not before the train leaves home
I can still hear your footsteps,
I can still hear your footsteps, and baby I can still hear your last words.

they have nothing on us, they barely know your name
I swear someday you will float away to a place far away and never look down
I will play my game under the moonlight tonight and become something that even I am afraid of

only in a dream can they fade us to gray, and only in a dream will they phase us out.
I’m the last thing to touch your lips, and like a poison, I will be the last thing you see before tonight is over
and your dreams will fade us to gray