Needless Needles

if you follow you me through to the ocean blue
deep and bruised, I will share with you
all the things in life that have done me wrong
and these words will say
all these needless needles, keep stabbing me up
all these wires hanging me down
keep hanging me down

there is a place in outerspace
so unused, far and distant and rarely seen
there is no words for me to say
just remember I was raised this way
there are not wires for hanging up your clothes
all these needless needles keep your veins filled with toxins
all these vessels are filled with your toxic addiction
keep shutting me down

now that we have established the story line I must remind you
just where I grew up in
five different places with ten different faces
all of which were supposed my mom and dad
but at the end of it all it was only me that I had
continuing through this struggle
these needless needles with their unfulfillable intentions
never help me wind up dead
or ever help me find out when
keep throwing me down

Close At Heart

remember when you first came around?
the first thing we did was watch those who made it doing what they loved
if you would've told me back then where you would take me, I never would have guessed
it was barely two and by then I knew I loved you
and as you were getting ready to leave, I took my hearts chance
grabbed your hands and made us dance

an hour past two
I walked out the door because I already knew
some days pass us by
but moments like those will always remain close at heart

now nothing smells the way the you did the day walked in
but because of this life I live, everything reminds me of that day
as it was barely a day later, I fell asleep to wake up dreaming of you
and in my love, I held you close at heart

something grows in presence to make its presence known,
but how do you miss something like this?
or me?
something so pricey and bitter sweet, barely stand-able in the core of
your mouth you don't understand why
no these nightmares don't come true,
as nightmares are only a sad mans dream as it unfolds
and you my love, will always be close at heart

January. Especially Since Someone Is Carrying Aydria

now we face the dealer, cards in hand, cigarettes and empty breathing
walking through these face down walls, sevens and fours leave me scrambling for nines
three is four without you, and me without six is me hoping for you,
ten moments of these cold days, conversations used to fix the past,
words flow out speedily today, almost too fast to make you understand
the flow you stole from me remains undecided as the river is now nothing short of dismisal
now we find our predicament predictable, nothing predetermined left us with everything undetermined
now we find the shortfall in everything, looking for scars in everything
these are black eyes from you
these are black eyes from you
these are nightmares from dreams that never came true
and the difference is this time, I know it's real when I say - I love you
everything is real is my world now, everything is made of cheap cologne and beds that are never big enough
everything we fall from is everything I needed to know, to keep you real, to keep this feel
under these clouds we find ourselves lost in lonely matter
all you know is that nothing matters
and everything you've ever dreamed of is never coming to this box set dining room,
staged here in front of your personal audience of you
not that sharing is the way to be, but understand it's always been us, and never just you and me.