Genesis 1:1

You've marked your crosses
And placed one upon my hand
Knowing you believe in Him too;
I'm falling a fool

Oh how I pray every time I close my eyes,
An seeing your name cross my face reminds me how you've brought me back to Grace,

These words mark the beginning of time;
You are my Genesis, bringing the universe to me and how kind of you to show me life,

When you shake there is nothing short of desire that crosses my mind,
Oh how deeply I long to keep you still,
Oh how deeply you've gotten into me, through my hands,
You're words are my nails and your beauty is my crown -

Have everything and tell her eternity remains

Under our years, every vow of love is...

Closure: Searching the Boardwalk

"Closure" poems are written for my friend Paige.

Relentless;

The first way I'd describe you (oh)
When I see you now,
I remember your late night words
I showed you my weakest side in my
Strongest of times
Hoping you'd call me back

Desperate;
But you can't spare me the bullshit,
You know I can see through your lies,
Like windowless eyes,
Super imposed pictures of us can't wait to hit the paper
As you'd rather us die then move on and live

Hopeless;
As you have yet to see,
Making someone the whole world empties yourself of true memories,
Oh how picture frames use to range these walls,
The glass shattered and we fell apart
And how holes paint fury we knew love at its hardest of times
And now my eyes dance ceilings, knowing we just need

Closure

Closure: Seeing Through Wooden Doors

"Closure" poems are written for my friend Paige.

I removed your name to forget your face,
With broken promises these hearts are hard to replace

You packed your bags and drove away
And I swore on my tears
After all those pained words
We swore off years;
Hearing you say your way out and how you couldn't be without me showed me I needed to be without you;

I sold my house because after all it was said and done,
You thought I was the only thing missing
Open through eyes showed me the light in the darkest days,
Knowing your fears kept me away from staying nearby,
I can't see you now,
The ghosts of my past with promises that won't last,
Hearing you out while I was deaf seemed to be unimportant to you;

I'll stay away,
You're my burden
I am just beginning to know
Who you really aren't

Closure: Coming Clean

"Closure" poems are written for my friend Paige.

In your city, these words are tasteless
A sample of what's yet to come
With a sense of who I am,
I won't ever feel this way again

And if you think I'm trying to take you down
Then your eyes are burning

Your back has been turned just long enough for me to really see who you are

But I don't care
All I have left to say is remember to forget me,
And forget every dream you'll ever have

This city is tasteless,
After you I leave my taste buds craving for something better
Now I'm coming clean,
Because seeing your name is not worth my time

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Someone call me out,
Tell me I'm not going to be a thing,
Show me the ceiling, and tell me I'm worthless.

Someone tell me I won't belong here,
Among the dead these seas wash away transformed love

Oh how far away is California?
Are the beaches really filled with arrogance?
Is the aroma in the air?
Oh, while worth you must,
A dime my love is lust

Shelter me now!
I don't belong here,
I can suit you if I can suit myself

Can you see the words as they escape my lips?
I'm lost in transmission, I'm changing in midst of transition,
How can I become alive?
I just want to be alive
I just want to be the words you say after you,
I love...

Wasted By the Blood

maybe if we can ever understand,
what truth in beauty really is.
the sun will rise once again

maybe if God holds us now we won't ever let go,
so call me out, in the shelter I hide
on the bottom of the sea,
I try to reside

but the air is so strong, that nothing gives me
the heart to belong, can't you see?

I died patiently with words waiting for you to paint,
the new empty and broken me.
nothing lives in this cascade, a part of who I was has now departed,
in love we say insane, this truth is only residual,

how do you convince someone who is already set on an answer to reconsider, without sounding rude?

to belong and keep up in this town
we bury our heads so far into the ground,
so we can feel alive again
to know we belong again

next to you, shotgun poses a threat
next to me, my heart falls from the sky in the manner of knowing
who I am,
and again begins the end, of another beautiful thing
wasted

As Long As You Know

How do you say the right thing,
When there is nothing right to say?

How do you live a life that is approaching its end?
What do you feel when you lose your friend?

There is nothing left to save us,
There is nothing left to save us,
There is nothing left to understand
As everything has been has been torn

The fish in this river keep getting taken away from the same lure,
A promise on the line with someone waiting to steal them

Love, some call it
But these words are science fiction

Did you ever love me?
Because gorgeous is the color in your eyes and tonight we set fire
We break down like decaying wood

We break tonight knowing the waters
In love we break to the end

Madness

These rivers that washed us away,
To where we float -
These city streets won't fail me now

Oh how glorious it is to feel insane!
To have spinning spiders at work in my brain!
To know to me alive is what you are,
Burning bright, my burning star

Is it normal enough to yell at the sky?
To ask a bodiless being "why?"

To never have a better word,
"Madness,"
She says
"you won't ever find me!"

To search through these papers
And only to find,
The things I take for granted are filing against me!
The world is spinning it's web around me
And the spiders are coming to get me

In a boxed off room I wear only one name tag

"Madness"

I Continue to Believe

With these wires I find myself
Falling down the horizon,
With bullets in shapes of daggers
These words were massacres

So how do I remain prevalent?
In a world built upon destruction,
The finest of a coiffeurs
Couldn't build upon my thoughts

When in Rome, I fall asleep in towers
There is nothing to lead me on

How do we relate?
In nothingness distance doesn't call me from below

I can't make out the difference between loving you
And tearing you apart
With a million miles apart you are at the edge of my galaxy,
And these ways can't keep falling down
Without wires,
We fall, we continue

These are the last words I could ever find at the back of my voice
To continue building up this personality

I'm in love with the idea of it

California Never Saw the Sunrise

If we walk through this city tonight,
what do we find?
Do we find the logic that other left behind,
or do we find each other?
Do we find out just who we are?

Right now, I have all of these questions inside,
and I've been searching for the answers
you don't exist in my world anymore,
as you've found a way to purge yourself out
and I can't believe how hard it is love, to stop love
especially when it's just gaining speed

I sit here behind these quiet office walls,
looking at pictures of yesterdays promises

is it worth it, to fall in love?
I've been sitting on dimes
hoping to find you were not the last of me
hoping to find you were not the death of me

If we walk through these city streets,
will we find ourselves in love?
Or will logic hold us back,
as falling in love has always been just too tricky
as falling in love with you would be just too easy

These sheltered walls have kept us apart
and although some might not know; I love you
I don't call because I don't bother ask;
why need I worry about you if you never had a history of getting hurt?

Your dad cried himself to sleep knowing he didn't do you right,
and the divorce that awaits, families are falling apart

Why do I bother fall in love with a stranger? You ask;
Not knowing someone allows me to know the best sides of who they are

Falling in love with you, oh is just so easy

The Hole in the Sky

Without knowing myself

I've tried to figure out how to become you

There is nothing in the world that

I could ever try to accomplish

I know nothing about the world,

I only know where we stand

So when you said you believed in God,

What was it that you meant?

Were you saying you believed that someone was watching over you?

Or just that the sky is too beautiful to have been left unmanaged?

Does it make sense, to fall in love with a stranger?

Or to fall out of love with your best friend?

If the sky closes up and swallows us whole,

Will we ever know how we really felt?

I can't believe that I've spent so much of my life,

Turning the pages away from you

I could never say

"Goodbye"

She Says the Most Beautiful Things

Clocks are all broken,
Because I don't have the time for you
I'm done with your games,
And I'm not mentioning names

You can't see the scars other have left
But I'm all new skin now
Residual things you take at the toll
As I pass you by, I know you are spiteful
So what makes circles and asks for nothing in exchange?
This city was burnt out of illusions

But you never cared
I stood in front of you with my bags and told you the door won't slam itself,
And you failed me
You failed us all

I lost all of my faith in you
Simply because you never had it in yourself

Lost (in These Dreams)

You light me up like matches,
And ask me to burn this place down to the ground
I'm solid with knowing that you've got me spent and spilled
I walk through these cities asking God why?
Knowing the pressures in your head are too much to keep you from bed.

When we feel like dying,
We lack the self esteem
To keep trying
And keeping our needles clean

You watched me build this house
Only to force me to watch you tear it down
With the words I try to say
You pull me to the ground

So when I sleep, I picture the world we once had,
Where nothing was nostalgic,
And everything was new,
So these are the last lines I'll ever say to you

I'm lost in these dreams,
Because I know that you are fake
But dreaming away a life that would be so much better,
Knowing everything I stand on,
Is more real than you

Find Me Again

Have you ever felt conflicted?
Like, you know the weight of the world is holding you down?

Like silver and blue turn into black and red?
Like everything you once lived for is now dead and gone?

I still feel that way.

We are blind, you see.
Dead animals floating over the sea,
You see?
We cannot live in such murky conditions

To know who we are is a joke shielded from laughter
To know who we aren't is our only gift we ever abandon

We search for God in our money,
We search for Jesus in funeral parlors,
We search for ourselves in drugs
But we never find anything

Moonshot, she says "today is the day I loved you"

I die every time,
With spent bullets and the courage the five bought me

Do you ever feel conflicted in heart?
Like you can't chose love over lust?
To know who yourself, someone else must

Breaks Like Ice (Cream)

You find me under the bridge tonight,
and I'm playing your favorite songs
you stop and say I'm pathetic for making you smile,
but you move on anyway

so you still say I can make these days last
but the last days we had are melted away with
bricks of time and sliding down your spoons

I can't make out with you anymore?
what if I could have made out with you again?
maybe our mouths would be more attracted to finding the words to say
when we had to say goodbye

well I guess I'm just a one hit wonder
(and afterwards I fall apart)
because distance is everything between us
(not like back when it was just a matter of inches)

our body heat
took over your bed sheet
and we rolled there on the ground thinking about how things went so well

but we sat there singing
"Goodbye, I won't ever see you again"
I loved you then, but now you can only be my friend

as I watch him take my shift
protecting you from the thieves that once stole me
and I'm melting away over here
you can't find it inside
to open your eyes,
even though you know

when it's him it's still always me

Pirate Under The Sun

it's getting hot
oh so fucking hot
with these waves throwing me around this ship

these birds keep shitting on me,
nothing left but these cannons to roll down to starboard

you are subliminal with thinking I could see you clearly
saying things like "we are coming to you"

we keep raising our sails higher than the masts
we keep playing the game of survivor,
thinking that we have much left to toil with,

these swords never killed
these words never killed

the blood keeps running off my hands,
and the gloves are off.

you were a whore worth killing
you weren't shit but a pile

so can you understand what I saw when I told you so?
he's only there to watch you go

he won't care,
he won't love,
he won't care,

all he's good for is the easy kill

oh it's getting so fucking hot,
he's your man, but I think you forgot

Bury Your Burdens

We came around here with intense conversations
of what love really is, and what it really is to love

Well he's going around the world with a bed behind his back

Do you really think I could ever conquer my own land?
That I could take back what once was mine?

Raw emotions beating by the snare drum,
and my hands onto you they grasp,
as knowing I've been gone makes my heart collapse;

You say "bury your burdens, and it will be all you ever will"
to become fearless, you must fear this, and know with
every "once upon a time" abruptly it ends without conclusion
"And know with every ounce of blood I'd give to you is too kind for someone
with your pedigree"

So slow
So I tow
Behind me lays a trick waiting for exposure

A mark upon my ribs He gave me,  my mark upon yours he gave you

And while you remain silent, of couse
You always knew your time would come

And it's up, and you are under him

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Not enough time,
Too much to say, I needed you to stand still
Everyone is trying to change everything about me,

She says don't go there, it won't be where you need to be
She forgets its next to her where I should;

They say don't fall for a girl and just focus on yourself;
I've spent the past six months doing that, what are you trying to say?

I feel like everyone's rag doll, thrown around and abandoned

She has every right to worry, because come an hour, I won't be breathing,
See come an hour, I won't want you to see

These strange feelings inside make me wish I understood how easy it is to live for others.

She had me inked in her ribs so I could never stop feeling her heart beat,
She's covered me up in layers and asked everyone to pretend I never mattered

I can't become a self dependent man because everyone has their voices eroding my confidence

Can this game be continued under someone else's watch? I don't think you are calling the shots as they are

But I'm done
I'm done with everything that seems to fall apart
You can control your vision if you keep your eyes closed
But you will never see the world as it truly is