Again, Against My Will, Again, Angst Sets In, For Seeking Out Your Destructive Fears

Sitting, corners on back
We lie when we lay,
Face down
We call it pillow talk, I call you
My nights end with the sun
If its off you seek, there are needles feeding these veins, hero
You want sleek with the textureless friction between us and broken bottles
Shouting out fictions, I've hated you since the day I walked into this cell,
My contraption conned me into belief, in the shower our shouting matches didn't collide, slip or matter,
With caution I speak slowly with performed audition lines, hoping you will line me up for your breakdown,
Tonight I'm broken by the barstool I use to sit on, abandoned.
You stole every feeling I regretted and burned it with a pacifire and legal tender
When you hoped I wouldn't care to notice, I walked through the doors to go through floors of your haunted part and life parted ways, thus lies that you wanted, are these lies you feel hopeless and centered by the spinning axle of feeling like a newborn separated from birth,
Torn into a thousand halves of the atomic purge God knew was only a selfish need as desires will devoure who we shall see in the mirror, we fall victim like the Romans in a battle for this city,
We rip and fold at the brim of this half empty glass,
And we were told to keep moving on, long after we buried our faces into the trees and streets we once floated above
No more angels, no more demons,
Just those who have gone home

Finally Found

If I've lost my touch with words,
These unique riddles then will hardly suffice,
If in the pretext I presume that you've counted the minutes away,
I relapse into this pile of drugs, to relieve myself from missing the young face I see once a week
You can hide but never run, so far away I've finally found someone who understands who I am, and who they are - the truth keeps marching on
The troops keep marching on,
And as painted silos keep us safe from vermin, we remain whole as we were
Can her laughs of excitement ever be mine in whole?
I've finally found myself lost for words to express how I want to just say, I love you.
I've finally found you, so far away, do you hear me when I pray?
I lose my footing, my sense of direction;
I lose my grip, my sense of place,
When I'm here awaiting your conscienceless body to awaken from a mist of worlds that play with knives to whittle away the remains of a soul that never ceded time;
This delirium never knows how to express the convey of ships my mind sets out to see; somewhere at sea, and I'm jogging my memory for days I'll never see; those past mine, in the Artic, it's twelve past nine;
Just a minute ago I needed someone to see; I needed you to save me
I've finally found you, now I just need to have her around me more to make myself fulfilled,
Lost?
You've lost, at last, the last list of lies to recall.