Hopeless Romantic

There are these elements to life I lose faith in

Like I'm sure you know, I'm not ready to be this broken,

Like others words, I just can't taste you
nothing without this who I am from you

Scary eyes and broken nights,
I felt like this was never what I needed it to be,

So call me out and tell me I'm worthless,
you'll never see this again and I'll know who lost,
I'm bound to your lies and I won't believe you again,

So where I find myself I know I'll be glad it won't be next to you,
the liar and whore you try to think that you aren't,
I refuse to believe you ever loved me

Start with how we ended and figure out how long we pretended

Such a loser you came to leave was two years ago,
when you met me in the corner and I'll never let you
forget how you felt that day,

Believe me, I'm going away because I don't care anymore,
when you stop calling, you stop caring -
so quick, be found out from many fish need these lies,
so wet from rain, they feel safe inside,
a destroyed shelter, I know where we will wind up,
far from here on out, I know you are missing,

As I hope to never know what it's like to feel lost in you again,
and dreams are unreal for me now -
they won't be that close to true again is it insanity that sparks craziness?
Or does He it leave it up to us the become other way around?

I'm just someones sand castle, so well built
abandoned and waiting for your recklessness,
to destroy me, kids at bay arrive and wait to play,
and while we wait for the sun to set, your lunar pull on me awaits these sunsets to make it's presence known,

Oh how I plan to be your last impression,
your last everything,
how I know damn well I was never meant to be your forever after,
so rip me a new broken heart

-Originally written on paper, while slightly intoxicated and in cursive. Check out the image here
Poem on paper, double sided.

A Desolate Soldier

You could've lied at any moment,
Or laid there in the middle of my thoughts,
Instead you stuck around to make sure I'd be ok, while you got ready to leave (me behind)
So goodnight, girl;
I could be next to you, and that still wouldn't be close enough
(I could die right here and you'd never know)
So bless these drunken thoughts, I'm right where I met you
You've been hiding from these loving eyes
I need you this time
I'm on the brink of a break down

I've been looking for you,
the angel that saved me from darkness
like a soldier on the battlefield
who's brother needed their love

I'll never die, if you're around
since I noticed your presence,
I knew I could make it out alive
and I won't ever ask you for another thing
as long as we both shall live,
except just stand tall and next to me

as I bleed out,
I know I will see you again

A Former Sense of Security

What ties me down? Am I limitless without gravity?
Having you here, finally, I've found the person we never knew

What lies have we found? Are we everlasting without property?
Having you there, finally, I've gained the person I was afraid to find

Who's worth it in the end? Someone amazing, maybe? Someone able to make each day pass without effort?

Discovering who I can be found me lost in your eyes,
This time away from you has only shown me unknowing strength
And its him babe, and I know its for the best

When the best side of me met the worst side of you,
I knew that my former sense of security has nothing on how strong you are

User of None

Retract me, as blades cut through these lines,
Keep me warm, silver spoon,
Just this morning, I woke up this afternoon
As dawn falls to morning,
I'll keep this
Believe the lie you love to be, the liar inside so forced to see,
My heart has no intentions, of being left alone
And if you take me, than don't let go,
I want you to feel loved again, and not through guessing
Because second guesses or second chances, kill us in the end
So if you want this complication, the come take me from the dead,
Hold on babe, you're spinning around my head
I'll bleed out from these eyes, with words I want to say,
I'm falling in love,
And I'm afraid you won't be there to catch me,
I'm falling to death,
And I know you're waiting for me to get scared (but babe, I ain't no bitch, and I'm not afraid of the consequences)
Cause all I want is you

Of the Same Way You Cross Lips

Cute girl, something more than just and unjustified, let me keep you;
This is lust in your eyes, but I see nothing less
The girl over there screamed save me, and so I came to; opened my eyes like 12 packs of blue moon,
I won't waste a drop of you (so don't drop the ball)

Cute girl, but with him in your life.
You complicated things, in ways so much better than I could count on (so I am running low)

I'm the one, who in theory could do no wrong (other than let you go)

Someone save me, I thought I had it all,
But none of it was mine;
As you stay in lust with flirting with me, I just want you to love me (oh, eventually)

You're what I can handle, girl
With my hands around your hips,
I pull you closer and say I love you, just like we cross lips
And disturbed you blow me up, like sinking ships
I'm sinking, I'm hoping, that you will let me take his spot

It's your sure that complete this broken man
Just like the way you cross lips, tongue in cheek
I'll be your flavor forever, not just for the week

Dreamscape, Just in Case

Don't just cave in, you're (not) a sorry wreck,
She says, look away, I can hear them coming to get you,
Oh, dear how much holding you fixes me
Insanity is the cure to everything, he says, and just how insane I want to be,
I can only feel crazy if I let you go;
Maybe I should say, I'm falling
Maybe I should mention, I'm failing
Your phone calls are like car alarms (I just want to run, and make sure you're still ok)
Who am I to be a thief?
Your eyes are like tires, so tired of looking, going, searching in all the wrong places
Oh how many nights I've laid alone, in this bed, wishing you were here just next to me
We can walk around the park,
And I'll take you back to my dreamscape, just in case you know
How many tears I've lost in prayers

I (Don't Want to) Lose You

Oh pull me
Oh pull me, in...
Let's make believe,
That you won't leave;
You're a beautiful girl
Close your eyes,
Pray for this,
When the oceans subdue
Or forever folds over
You can see,
Underneath, swims a man,
Who has an empty mantle,
My only sin was your impression,
I'm not going wasted, you're afraid
I'm missing,
I've missed you,
Hope for this,
When? Now.
As my eyes reveal,
She's amazing, maybe almost nothing that has anxieties
Compares to this weather,
I don't want to miss out on you
So don't run,
I don't want to lose you, although you're not mine
Oh pull me,
Pull me closer,
Me closer now,
Closer now farther;
I will hold you,
As you cry, as you smile, as you do
I can't contain myself;
I want to have you

She's Amazing Man

Given the moment, I'd sky dive into the deepest oceans,
With the pressure you're under, I don't know how you live (breathe)
Beaten by the punch, the man at the time clock doesn't know if he's coming or going (starting this, I'll help you end it)
The sweetest words I would love to say,
So loud it hits your ears, but leaves a mark on your heart,
In the heat, I'd make (it) out with you, oh I would rip you to pieces, like a proceedure perfectly manicured,
Hand made, in clay I'll spin you alive
So scream, scream, (whisper, I love the way you make me love me)
I love the way you find me at the bottom and your plan is to save me (I'll sit here at your bottom and let it ride, my mouth says you have words of nerve, and words of steel)
I want to steal you, and let this save your life and prevent all of your pain (I'm under the impression you're happy; without it)
Believe I'd die at his hands before I let you die in his arms
With all you have left to discover, these oceans (of words) are so deep you can barely breathe (let alone live)
Blue, blue, blue, blue, blue
Don't let death grab us (because I'm vulnerable)
Who do you think you are?
I'm underneath you, knowing you can see, a man like me ready to be
Ready to be, so much happier than you are willing to let (too bad, too bad)
I'm so amazed by the way your lips move, and I can't hear a thing

Panic In Losing Love Still

Depending on you, I'm fucked now
inside, you took it all away from me in forms of white pills
and told me I cannot live like this anymore;
I'll throw it in your face

waiting alone inside, the corridors swing
the birds sing songs of death, my ears start to ring
and I cannot tell you how much you mean to me

on these tree branches,
I keep kissing myself to sleep
never looking back, but looking down
this just won't do

how can I hold myself together when I am not?
I keep losing you, in sleep or in pills,
as I am addicted to taking you when I feel lost in myself;
someone as beautiful as this should not be so dead inside

if I could, I would show you everything I believe in,
if I would, I could show you who I am,

but you are not to love me, as I am the kind you needed
four years ago,
and these years have yearned long nights with infinite tears
so I die, in these orange bottles,
I'd rather be lonely in my senseless mind of being than being accompanied

you're so deaf to me,
you're so dear to me,
you're so dead to me,
I'm learning as I go how close I can cut it with out bleeding out,
(my skin is not thick by any means)

as I loved you, I can't keep myself from feeling like a dying star,
when I explode, I won't kill you, I will pull you in
I will pull you closer than you hope
and leave you watching the rope

Ghosts of Eleven Kinds

go everywhere kid, she said,
go down so far you can hear the rivers starting to flow

go everywhere kid, she said,
through the rivers, you can find what you are missing

go everywhere kid, she said,
I'm nowhere and I hope you can carry me there

go everywhere kid, she said,
you're just a law and I hate to break you down

go everywhere kid, she said,
stay the hell out of my way, I'm afraid of people like you

go alone, get out of dodge,
here; everything amazes, there has every regret

ran through every barren street with the bleeding feet,
under my nose runs rivers of blood, as I need not to smell you
I cried for these days you've wasted, and question our time lost
if I ever mattered, you never would've done this

go everywhere kid, she said,
I'm hoping like hell you'll stay out of my way, I'm petrified of your life

constantly ordered, rest ever young,
you just know not how lucky you truly are

bleed eyes second days, broken bats with corners missing from these rounded surfaces
blind ears see not your perspective you try to force me to face,
your life is a lie, as far as I am ever concerned, if you were ever concerned,
torn to believe, that these tears roll down my cheeks, where your lips should be

new woman with such a beautiful face,
I want to love you, I'm just petrified of falling for you if you have no clockwork in shape for me,
and in this shape, I need some classic fixing up
I need some of your words to touch me until I can't feel again

get away girl, you ruined everything,
ghosts of eleven kinds, my heart is supported by your key

go everywhere kid, she said,
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love these lies

keep calling, you're the reason I love losing sleep

Any Deserving Nightmare

For your hazel blue eyes, what was there is dead and gone
For your oceanic blue eyes, the past has come back with a bat in its hand to rip tides into your soulless being,

Hate me for fucking this one up, throw all the China at me and cut me to pieces, I don't give a shit anymore,
Abandoned the way you've always wanted, these lines progress to fade into the streams that move in,
I'll move on (again and again)

I know you and all the lies you fed me, did I look starving?
Fuck I must've looked pathetic walking through those storms to have you looking at my back,
Seems like he has you back, but you're just a casket.

Killed off like a true victim,
Your lies stole sweet venom from me, for leaving me I won't ever be back or give a damn, so row your own boat, you don't want me, you want pathetic nights with someone who learned while you were born,
You'd never see these symbolic shadows, you'll burn your captcha as I capture your life in a phrase,

You're a fake, and she's long gone, I'm a liar and I'll always say I don't want this