How Amazing Are We?

Forceful
Limp
Broken
Fixed

Flightless
Fightless
Straining
Restraining;

We walk with our heads pointed to the ground, and our feet to the sky;
The luminous night sky, our favorite conflict -
We could have been someone else, had it been those paths, where we were crushed.

It's a long, sad story how we came to be, with ghosts we never knew;
How long our eyes were longing for a spark, somewhere in a coffee shop;

Close your eyes, we have another now, and we have a smile marked across our faces when we look at another; this city has lost its mark on me.

How long can we fetch these words from our mouths?
If any moment we ever grasp the rope, we can stay tied for weeks upon years, not a shred of fear could ever truly move us.

We will be amazing, in our own cookbooks. You made me this way.

Faces vs Phases

I've determined the following things in a minutes time:
we can't lose;
we can't win either;

we breathe without being;
without reason, why are we being?

pretentious, pretending and cautious;
I love you.
you just don't know it;

under a silver sky, a crescent looks down on us,
ironically, it wants nothing more than to come down tonight.

all I want is to go down tonight;
with you in mind -
I can't do any better,

your faces vs your phases, we don't have the glare left;
all we have is brilliant displays of affection in front of this coffee shop
and you couldn't stand to be in there,
so instead; we shall sit and wait

if you are going to die someday, you have to live these days,
as we are decomposing; in periods, we become lesser versions of ourselves;

I will dance away honey, while bees chase me;
but as long as I am stuck to you, they can hurt me, but they will never get the best of me

so far, though still too close,
I come closer to closure, in knowing who you aren't

something these eyes love,
are staring back at it

your faces are all I want tonight

For Today

you will be perfect, I swear I can feel it coursing through my veins,
for today you will do more than just fine,
by tomorrow you will be more than just mine;

I have a glowing heart, rampantly disregarding my energetic needs for something fast;
you are something glorious,
for today, I have learned everything about you I needed to know

so we laid in your bed, and talked about things,
we held each other like we've never met before;

but we felt like growing up,
we held each other for hours on end;

we sat at the end of your bed, and talked about us
we held each other like we've met a hundred times before;

I am expanding my horizons, and saying goodbye to my past
I feel confident in what we are;
so glad I met you
these things I won't ever forget,

I wanted to sing you to sleep, but those words I so tiredly sang,
were everlasting
and from these trees, we fall under
we fall for today,
for today is greater than the previous

Rolling Into Flat Stones

I don't hear the sound anymore,
of the drums getting louder;
I only feel the reverb, growing on me.

I know a shockwave is coming, but I know I won't feel it at all.
I could catch a cold at a hundred miles per hour, but it won't affect me.

In this submission I make, I can grow up as I say all the time;
I don't know why I have this seasonal need -
to be lost fake and faded,
sugar coated lies,
these words we've hated

somewhere in the grass, we know we come along,
in days, we set hourly wages,
we have waited for the marching me, and they have never came,
we have waited for the train,
but it only wanted to stay.

I guess, it's so cliche to expect the best, but sometimes we stand still,
rolling into flat stones, we wait alone
some birds sing while others cry,
we love these lessons, we've earned a life
I want you, I feel you breaking into my heart,
hoping to steal it's contents;

it's elsewhere,
in a safe-house; located so far away I barely ever see it myself.
But if we believe, and look into mirrors to try to interpret our reflections,
we become more

we become heroes

My Perfect Victory

post this part, I listen to you but I can't hear you speak
you hit me a hundred times before I tried to hold you back
the siren's were red and blue and so were we
I wanted this to stop before it ever began, but my heart is anxious,
like the bird on my chest, it left early but never found it's way back home

and so now, I sit here, knowing who I have to be, and who I have to become;
all I want is love, something I'm afraid I will never have again
but I know I love fear through these eyes;
madly, deeply and true to you I was,
I knew it was just a matter of time

and you will know,
I left the light on for you,
you live in the darkness so you can't see what you're missing;
those roses died, and all but one will never see the light of day-
but it's so cold in that room.

and together, I can allow you to be happy on your own terms;
I miss my life I once had;

I'm just an empty void;
a few girls now want me to be their temporary write off;
and three days into it; they all give up; move on; meet someone without all the strings attached
someone who cares, who won't ever leave, who won't be me;
I'd like to know- what burns your fuel? Are you a jet that has stayed put, awaiting me to get on board with you to your unknown trip to the edge of the universe?

I just want to meet you;
I just want you to see -
the person you're afraid I'm going to be

and through these mad eyes, I'm still crying for someone to be the you I thought I had;
my perfect forever

Dead

Leave me here,
Farther in a grave you never saw me dig up
You're gone now, so cold and blue
Dead to me is dead to you,
Your hands grab for air, resisting to conceive that there is nothing there,
You danced away, with my melody and my gun pulled to my back
You have to be dead as you're just a ghost to me, of something that used to be
It's not the first time your eyes have rolled back,
Like clockwork every year its just not our time
So keep on ticking away, when no one is around, you can cause devastation to every man and woman standing at this station,
With a loss of words within a moments notice,
You won't care for details, you will just ask how it went when you get go hell,
You've killed everyone off who cared for you,
You're dead, because you killed yourself
I'm not schizophrenic, I'm just having a hard time believing you are real, from the looks of it, you're just a fake rolling off a factory line,
Just some guys production count that he never wanted to start
Shut down this machine, stop all the presses
We are all dead inside as we've given up the things that we once loved for some filth we will never give a fuck about

Last Summer of Romance

Did you think you were doing me a favor?
Or that maybe you could save me?
We can fight, the old you versus the new me,
You can't play a game missing all of its pieces, and I won't commit any piece to you,
You would be better off at the bottom of a cliff with your understandings that this was going to give you a big fucking smile,
It was your last summer of romance, as you broke through hearts with a dozen bullets,
I won't persist with attempts to give you a hotline,
My words to you were riddles your ears tried to put together,
But your mind is afraid to interpret;
So grow up, this will be my last romantic summer,
My next mission will be much easier,
Once you realize this truly is for you

You Can't Stop

You look at me, in vain from all these separated nights;
I'm so lost in your words, looking up always seemed like a waste of time,
And I saw you from across the room;
We were both so sheltered
In a heartbeat, you took away every word you ever said,
Truth be told, these hands we hold are kites undone, with ribbons pursuing the sky,
I'm out of a life,
You can stop everything now
I don't play games, I'm useless against your tactics,
Against your headboard, I'll hear you out
You can't stop, as we have become lifeless
Everything we've become, just a shudder in the terms we looked up for

Leavers Always Lose First/Losers Always Leave First

so into second intermission,
so impatient with ending our confessions,
we can't ever change with all of these dollar bills we'll never earn
just in case you thought you knew,
you had me held up with you stalling lines
"I just don't know if..."

games are not things I have time for,
let me interfere with your plan, you're just as good off if you just leave now
you'll never get love if you always throw it away

you'll get the lost one's biggest treasure, a heart modified for loving like no other,
don't fear for what you'll lose out on is this magnificent trailer home built from scrap metal,
but I can promise you better nights than the words you lose in fights,

so scream at me for taking you out of the game you set me up with two months ago,
you can't keep what you dreamed up, when you wake up it all vanishes.

this time around, I won't let you let me down, I'll keep you head up to the fan,
so I can hear you scream for me to stop the pain, at a level so much lower than where you put me
as you threw me up against the walls, with your legs around me, and lips dangling on mine,
I will never let this one down, I can keep up with those who've been waiting for a shot

you've kept your promises bleak and disappointing, as I promise to keep on leaving
I will look your way and pray for you to come around one day,
and I won't look back on you, leaver, non-believer, because true love was never love in the first place,
it was just me getting used as always,
we played patty cake on the simple fire that lit up nine hundred miles of lies

and I always walked to you, when you were on your way out, I knew you had nothing left to give,
except another lie, and we all know that's all you're good for, lying
face first into the pillow, screaming - stop hurting me;
oh, you are my heart, soul;
you are me.
As I have thrown the game to show the world how willing I was to lose you,
I've always been losing myself, but I'll never leave