Silent Of Course

the nicest smell to fade through my blood vessels

nothing to take to taste

after all hours that I've put in to you

data center is in need of some repairs
the walkway to the concrete is the way you approach our next moves,
if you feel normal again, I will wade in the ocean built by millipedes searching for my heart
as now I know what it all meant
the things you were afraid of made me forget where I found love with you
already someone cares immensely spelled out the code it took to break this vault
and these vivid dreams are making sense to me before it gets too late
though my fingers move slowly through your dress, I only intend to undress
our machine is well greased and stirringly built
in the midst of this open well the ocean sprays back the pain we left at our ankles
as you sit there, silent of course, I didn't know what I wasn't doing all along

The Lay of the Land

now that I've been around, I'm getting use to this new feeling
some people say hello when I'm leaving
as much as you say this world is falling apart
I know it's coming together
now however I know my way around you and I feel like a new toy
pull me higher than yesterday and lay me back down on my feet
my only feeling for life is the implemented love
only you should know
I love you as much as you deserve it
only for you I count the stars
you are a separate galaxy
the simple feeling of you is the simple work of time
you are my perfect star
now that I know the lay of the land
I can lay next to you at night with a smile

This Eclipse

for Jessica

we walk on the ocean floor, though gravity doesn't allow
we stay sturdy on the boat, while hanging off the bow-
here we sit, alone again, sounding off at the slightest shot from the gun
you are my moon, eclipsing this sun

you pull them in, just to erase time spent at shore
when I thought I was filled with love, you spilled in some more
this is reality as time goes by,
this is love, and nobody knows why

it's not the way you smile that takes me higher
it's not the way you talk that makes me fire,
as you are my moon
well will both show off our love closer to noon

you will show your curves to the face of the world
asking them to understand -
if it's not the weight of the world
then its the way you play your hand

you are my beautiful eclipse
and you will always be my beautiful ellipse

Carry Me (neverleave)

we've spent
so much time getting this chord progression down
you've been plucking at my heart
letting me see that you are my violinist

keep up the pace and promise me you'll never leave
you are the carrier of my room key, you are safe and alone in here

we've spent
every waking moment figuring out how to configure our love just right
you take my bandwidth and make it measurable
keep on saying that our love is unbreakable
not even an outside force can break us now

and as she laid next to me she had her arm tucked behind her back
I went to go grab her arm so she could hold me
and as love works she was holding onto someone elses hand
and all I know is that I'm feeling pretty pessimistic right now.

carry me somewhere needless of rest,
back into your arms
is often rated the best
call me from far away and say you'll never leave

if you stay in my heart you can
never leave, never leave, never leave me alone
as long as you stay here tonight to carry me with you
throughout the rest of our days

carry me for the rest of your life, because you've already picked me off the ground
and set me sailing with you in my own personal boat
left with cheap vodka and remainders of you
under the captains set you lay tied up so that you will sink into the bottom of my broken blue heart

if you say, in my heart you can
never leave, you won't ever leave you will never leave me alone
and throughout this universe we sail through, your eyes turn
back to blue, black to blue,
you will always be, it will always be, just me and you

Carry Me poster for you to keep :D

A Devotion of More than A Mess Left from Last Words Written by the Author of an Untouched Book

it's pointless to say, you're making me happy
live
analytical
self obsessed
human

it's pointless to tell the world you're making me live again
fully
completely
thoroughly
senselessly

you've burdened me with your past mistakes
words
worlds
hopes
dreams

you've decided I am all you've ever wanted
dreamed of
hoped for
wanted
needed

well truth be told, you are the fix to this broken mold
now something can come of me that you have swung my way
I live every moment to be able to say
you have the last hands I ever want to hold

well the truth is what almost ruined us
now something selfish to say of me is that I don't want anyone else to meet you
I live every song I write you for me to have goals for the ones that are two
you have the best heart for holding on through all the fuss

Carry Me (followthrough)

you alienate me from the whole world
in our perspective, you are promising the whole world

carry me or marry me, either way, I need you to hold on to what we have left
carcasses are rotting in the streets behind us, it's safe to say we saved each other from
being lost

well, this city is in flames for its past
so oh-my-God save me from all the mistakes I've made

you broke this robot and built it back from scrap pieces you were holding onto
well this is coming full circle love, and you don't fall far from the center of all this pain

carry me or marry me, but don't leave me waiting at the alter for your computer worlds last phrases
carry me, and keep on following through
this is all I've ever needed to become a man
was someone else to build me up with my broken heart being replaced

Carry Me (faraway)

ash trays filled with nicotine from your jumping lips
if it's just making you nervous now, then you better keep on this ride

rollercoaster is spinning out of control,
rollercoaster is falling to pieces,
well if it's not obvious,
this car is all thats keeping me from the ground

some simple safe words, maybe I should've listened to
keep your hands inside, keep your body parts in the ride

tightly ease up on your words, and fasten the bars,
if you don't do this, then you'd better expect nothing less
than death

rollercoaster, is spinning out of control,
rollercoaster, is breaking down on us
well if it's not obvious,
our cars are crashing into eachothers

rollercoaster, you were just supposed to be a ride
rollercoaster, now I am falling apart
carry me, medics,
carry me far away,
well I never wanna look back
and I never want to see this fucking town again

Carry Me as you do

Three versions of Carry Me are to be written on top of the original.
<3 SHANE/SHAYNE

Carry Me (carryme)

the sun exerts its force on all of us down here
it shows our true colors hoping people are paying enough attention

the moon dances in place for all of us down here
it shows us the waves that build up over time hoping people are paying enough attention

in the morning, we will lay here with broken arms and closed hearts
in the evening, we will try to make with beaten eyes and shutters on our feet

walking through the ceiling, my relentless parody of a life is coming to a cut
walking through the door, my relentless eyes have come to a close

so carry me, carry me
in your arms is where I'll be

though the sky is waiting for you, so am I
forgive me for these tears you let out

waking up in the morning of a wakening
a burial of time holds you down

beaten through the race of time
you need to keep on running

so carry me, carry me
as though I am surviving with your help

End of the Conversation

this is a new version of the poem, without being the same poem at all

there is no reason to believe anymore, that the town I was in before
has any value to me at all
the remainder of the fact, the remainder of the equation is,
you and I, and thats the way it ought to be
my heart has been fixed with your hot metal and touch for love
the first part is, the hardest part of all
when you are coming from, a place so distant and distracting you can forget
what it is like to feel alive in the first place
so trust me when I, when I say that I am your new home and you have the ability to
decorate accordingly, according to me and the rest of the world who wants to be
in our position
all signs point this way, all signs point to you
if you are the tornado you say you are, then I am your perfect storm
and if you wind up slowing down, letting go of me, I can't say that I will be able to let go too

When I Woke Up

you were there next to me,
staring off into space wondering about rocket ships and religion
I had disbelief that I had fallen, but for the moment I realized,
your hand was on my head
and there we were, on my makeshift bed

when I woke up, and saw your beautiful face
I realized that you being in my heart was you being in place
your smile and your wandering eyes  made me sweat out my fears
that you could lay next to me for the rest of my years

you were here, where I lay,
staring off into space wondering if I was here for you
I had disbelief when you walked away
my hands were on my face,
as I tried to put together why you left this place

when I woke up, and saw you had left,
I walked around in confusion
it still smelled like you, you were hiding somewhere nearby
when I told you I loved you,
with a slight bit of concern, you asked why?

my best answer to your riddle will always stay the same
because when I woke up, I saw your beautiful face

Marguerite

so grandma, they're putting a time on you
you are timeless and trusting
without you, I could never have witnessed life
I believe that God has a weird way of working around these things
across a border, I cannot escape to see you when I need to
for now on, I will keep praying he decides to keep you around
for my own selfish reasons, I love you

so grandma, you're still the same as I remember
you are worthy of all time and effort, trust me
without you, our family could never have been this way
I believe you will be in heaven where you deserve to be
across the borders people dare me to say, I know you will always live on
for now on, I will make new memories of you so I won't be able to regret this past year
for my own selfish reasons, I love you


-for my grandmothers
grandma c, I am so glad you are beating cancer
grandma r, I hope God is merciful and cures you